Friday, December 24, 2010

Where is the True Church of God?

     I have looked at many different denominations and many believe they to be the true church of God. I have tried in vein to find a church filled with wise men, apostles, angelic beings or just perfect men and women. In my labor I only found ordinary people like me. Where then is the true church of God?
     I prayed to God to show me his church. It seem to me that God kept silent however in this silence an answer was coming through. My eyes began to see and my mind began to understand. The true church of God was made up of ordinary people like me. They are imperfect and have problems too. They try their best to find the right way to go and no matter how many years of worship they still need help once in awhile. We all far short of the glory of the Lord and ever so often need his help and mercy.
     I believe those in the true church of God are lovers of righteousness. They are loyal to their God. These are the children of God who are obeying his voice and doing his will. I know they reflect his ways in everything that they do.
     Who are in the true church of God? All those believing in the name of Jesus Christ and are showing God's love to one another. They are the ones who God has chosen by his mercy to enter into his kingdom. They are the ones who loves their God more than themselves. They are the ones who are true to his word. The ones who will be included in God's church are the ones with a whole lot of love within their hearts and the willingness to do the work of the Lord.
     You see the true church of God is not a place. It is a world wide church consisting of many loyal followers. Even within the church where we are now going, there will be ones chosen by him and ones who will be rejected by him. God will judge our hearts and not by the place where we are in.
     Our love is what separates us from others. Our love originated from our God. It is the kind of love that Jesus Christ carried with him upon the cross. The love within our hearts identifies us as God's children. Those who have the love of God inside them make up his church.
     Where are these people of God's church? Look around you. Look around in your community. You will know them when you listen to them. Study God's word the Bible and it will tell you more about them. These people of God are a blessing to the human race. Gentle in their ways. Loving in their hearts and powerful in spirit. These are God's children of paradise and the true church of God.  

Thursday, December 23, 2010

The Highest Order of Work that I Could Ever Do

     What are we doing with our lives? What are we accomplishing for ourselves and our world? Many hours I have spent working only for money, only for pay. Nothing in our world never changed as I worked. The time I spent was only for my material wants and needs. This kind of work will continue until I die. Is there not more for me to do than only to work so to survive?
     There was something that my eyes could not see but my mind was comprehending. A veil was lifting and I could see the true work before me. It is a work of the highest order. It is the best and the most meaningful work that I could ever do. It is a work that is second to none and most ignored.
     The highest order of work is the building up the human heart and the human mind. It is making the people of our world into the image of Christ, heirs to his kingdom and brothers and sisters unto our Lord. Yes the work is to reclaim our entire world and cleansing it in the Lord's spirit and bathing it in his love.
     To many times I have ignored this great work of change. I got so lost in my everyday activities. I had little time to do anything else. I saw my world rioting away and I did not know what to do. A darkness lied around me and there was only a little light shining through. My eyes were getting to accustom to the dark but deep within, my soul felt sick. My mind and my heart knew there was much more to life than this. Like a sleeping man I was waking up from my slumber.
      I thought to myself what if men and women were more like the angels of heaven and treating each other with love and kindness. Is it beyond our capabilities? I said to myself, No. No it is not. People can be different than what they are. Generation after generation does not have to pass down to each other the worst of themselves but their best. It is within our abilities to show compassion to one another. Nothing is impossible if we do not let our minds think it is so.
     The highest order of work is changing ourselves and thus changing our world around us. Nothing you could do in your lifetime could be any greater than this. One step towards heaven is one step towards a life in paradise. It is a step towards a new world and a new place to be.
     Men and women awake to that light within you and open your eyes to that new world that could be around you. Dream the best dream and live as though it could be true. Never give it up for it could be possible. Do the work then live that dream.
     Our greatest work is our greatest hope for our world, united we would be in peace and in love. Making our world into heaven what more could you dream of, what more could you want? We would have nothing to fear again and nothing to feel sorry about. Our home would be a place of peace and a place of rejoicing. The spirit of God would be close to us all the time.
     Beautiful souls with a spirit like an angel. Our world would be blessed. What is keeping us from having this glorious future? The answer I believe is each of us. Our voices sound not like angels but like serpents. Our hands are not open to welcome a brother but closed around a rock. Our hearts are not filled with love but with anger and conflict. What is preventing us from having heaven? Ourselves.
     The work, the work why is it not being done more? What have we found to be better?

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Never Does a Dime Equal a Dollar

     I am given a dime and the world expects back a dollar. I have grown to be in debt because dimes I have but dollars I am lacking. Ten dimes to a dollar you may say but I cannot compensate when every dime is equal to a dollar of debt.
     Why do they only give me a dimes worth and they charge me a dollar? It is so unfair.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Love, Because You Can

     Love without expectations. Just love because you can. Love is without fear. Love is about taking risks. Love is not about fear of failing. It is about doing what is right. Love is an expression of our spirit and it is apart of us.
     To not to love is like not using your legs or hands. It is like not using apart of you. We may get around in life without using our hands or legs but not very good. It is the same with our love. We can live our life without giving or receiving love but our life will never be quite complete. To live our life as it was meant to be, we have to use everything that God has given us including our love.
     So love, because it is apart of you and love, just because you can.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

The Spirit, Freedom from Law

     There are laws for the flesh. Those who live by flesh need laws but those living by the spirit no longer need laws. If I walk by flesh then I need laws for my own sake for without law how would I know right from wrong. Break the law and be punished or live within the law and be free. If I live within the law I should be safe and those around me likewise. The law governs and protects our flesh.
     There are many different governments and many different laws, laws that are created by imperfect men. If the men are crooked then we will have crooked laws. If  they are in just then we will have injustice. Where ever their mind and their heart leads them is the way that they will go. If we live by the flesh then our flesh will lead our way.
     According to Galations 5:22,23 "the fruitage of the spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faith, mildness and self control. Against such things there is no law." If we walk by the spirit the law of the flesh will become obsolete. For who will be doing the crime and from where will the grievances come? The law will not be needed if all of us live by the spirit and not by the flesh. There are no laws against love, joy, peace, kindness and goodness. The spirit is truly free from law. Those who walk by spirit are free from the laws that are upon the flesh for there are no restrictions at all on the ways of the spirit. Freedom from law is living by the spirit.
     Jesus Christ long ago told us to walk according to the spirit and not by the flesh. Those of us who really know about life knows his words are true. In the kingdom that he has promised us the courts will stand empty. Our flesh will be ruled by the spirit bring to an end the laws ruling over the flesh. Fairness will be a common practice ruling out the need for justice. People will give freely from their hearts creating an abundance for all. By the love of God and by the love out of our on hearts a perfect world will be born. A world that no longer needs law.
     Today people are still closing their hearts to the spirit and clinging tightly to passions and desires of the their flesh. Laws are still needed for the spirit has yet to take complete control. When will people ever learn that God's way is the superior way to live? It is a way for us to grow beyond the condition that we are in. It is a way to freedom over our flesh. In the end the world without law will be the perfect world of God's spirit.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Finding Happiness

Happy is the man who has found friends who understands him.
Happy is a man who has found a wife to love.
Happy is he who has found a job which satisfies his soul.
Happy is the one who has found their place and
their purpose upon the this Earth.
Happiness is having the knowledge, the opportunity, the health and
the resources to be what you were meant to be.

Friday, December 10, 2010

An Angel, A King, Among Us

     He is a realist. One who can see beyond the deceit. The one who can see within the soul. A caring sort of person. An avoider of violence. A sacrificer of his own needs. He has deep concern for his future and that of others. Within his soul lies much compassion, justice, truth and love.
     The purpose for his life is to seek the basic truth. The truth is always a main concern in his life. His plans are made carefully and with tact if including others.
     A seeker of peace and of rest for his soul and spirit. A giver of wisdom and also a taker with an open mind. A constant pursuer of knowledge of all things. He has an understanding for spiritual detail of his own mind and that of others. He gives his opinion to those that want to listen but never forces his ideas on others.
     A lover of beauty where ever it may be, in the soul, in the Earth or in the heavens. He is color blind to the races and treats others as equals. He is a friend to anyone that wants him. He listens and understands about deep felt problems of others. He searches the long road to find the answers and night and day he searches.
     He is alone within himself and an alien to many people. A very complex person but yet seems to be very simple in his thinking. He never gives up but stumbles every so often. If he does fall, he will get back up and begin again. He may not be rich, popular or famous but he is content and at peace with himself and the world. There is no way out for him. He is what he is, a person seeking a way towards perfection of body, mind and spirit.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

God's Gift Within

     I cannot equal this gift from God. His gift is perfect, where as I am an imperfect being. I can only try to express it perfectly knowing full well I will come up short every time. Then why try? It is apart of the perfection of God and God has given me a way so to reach for it.
     What God has given me he will not take back. It is mine as long as I shall live. What I choose to do with this gift it is up to me. I can choose to never to use it. I can choose to hide it away. I can use it in a negative manner or a positive one. God has made it clear it is totally up to me, the way I use his gift.
     Everyone of us I believe has a special gift from God. A gift hidden away inside our selfs. Some may know what theirs is while others are still searching for it. Some may think that their gift is not so special or not important at all but it is important. When all of our gifts are laid out upon our world it will reflect heaven. The spirit of God will flow from us over the face of the Earth, changing our lives forever.
     Do not be believing that you do not have a gift from God that he has somehow forgotten about you. All you have to do is to look inside your heart and see that it is there. Do not be thinking that your gift is less. Do not ignore or throw away what God has given you. Honor your God by honoring that which he has given you.
     If you believe he has only given you a little, then cherish that little for it is his precious gift to you. If he see you respecting him with only a little will he not see fit to give you even more. Some of us has gifts which shine forth instantly while others have to cultivate theirs.
     Our God has a design do not be questioning our master's plan. Step up and take a active part in it because he has not left you out. God's spirit is with you and is within you. His spirit is so great. It can work miracles for you and even by you. Your gift within can help to bring our world closer to our God. Do what you can and rejoice in the things that you can do for him, for his gifts are a blessing to all of us.  

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

A Revelation of the Highest Truth

     We are loved. We are always loved. We were made in the image of God and God is love. Even in darkest hour where we feel that we cannot go on we are still loved because we cannot be any less that what God has made us.
     Some may not understand or grasp this highest truth about who we are because of the lies that people spread. We are told that we are less and that we do not measure up. Our skin color maybe different and we are judged by the body that we have. Our words, our mind and all that we have may not be up to somebodies standards. We are made to feel defeated by the lie that we are less.
     I am greater than less. This I know is true. The real truth does not lie in how people make me feel but in what I believe is true. If I believe myself to be less then I become what I believe. If I was made in the image of God how can I be less than that image? Only if I let myself to believe in something different than what I am.
     Unconditional love I can give to myself and no one can take that from me. It is mine to have always. We were born with our spirits to be free and I am starting to realize that freedom is not to faraway. Returning to that innocence is just one belief away. I believe that by not letting the world control my image. I will gain control for myself. Control in being who I want to be and not as others would like me to be.
     I believe if I am in tune with myself, the peace and the calmness of the soul will be mine. I can sense within me that place of peace however I can also sense a whirling storm within my mind. I yearn for peace but the storm keeps it away. What is that storm? It is all the negativity that I allowed in over the many years of my life. It has become a barrier separating me from my true self.
     In my revelation of the highest truth there in my mind was a picture of me just being me. A picture of what I could be if I just embraced that I was made in the image of God. I realize that each of us is precious and valuable to our world as our selfs. I found that if I were to respect that image of God within me, I needed to respect that image in that of others. I believe the truth is, love is just a belief away in our selfs and a belief in the beauty of our own spirit.

Monday, December 6, 2010

The Music from Heaven

     I have often felt that the word of God and his love was like music from heaven. It is pure without deceit. Music itself cannot lie, it is what it is. It is a pure vibration that moves the soul and that purity is so enticing. I want not just to listen to it but to become apart of it, to be a note in heavens symphony.
     At times I feel the music is far from me. Then at other times I feel I am standing within it's flow. For some reason I cannot hold on to it. My spirit is uplifted when it touches me. I am made happy by it's song but when it is only slightly felt I feel sad. I believe heaven's music is energy for the spirit. We can feel it in someway. It's sound can change our heart and soul.
    One of the worst things that could happen to me is when I can no longer feel the music. When the music becomes silent within my soul. An emptiness that I could not even imagine would be created within me. I would experience a void without depth. My heart would grow cold. I would live life without meaning or purpose. My sight would become narrow and my feelings would turn inward. I would live my life only for myself. However thanks to God that has never been the case. The music from heaven has never been to far off. It is always been within my grasp. A prayer to God has always brought it closer to me.
     I live for the sound of the music. If it were to die I would die as well. My spirit cannot live without it. It's tone is pure and it makes my heart rejoice. The music of heaven gives life to my soul. It melts away the pain inside and it takes away the cold. You never feel alone when the music of heaven is within you. It fills you up with joy and it completes your soul.
     The music of God's word and love is whole and complete. It touches the deepest depth and the highest elevation. From one end of the universe to the other there is the sound of heaven's music. All life exists because of it's sound. I believe at the core of my being the vibration is keeping me alive. The more of heaven music we have within our world the more together will be, together as one family and one people. The sound of God's word would bind us together and the music of his love would keep us together.
     Even if many are not listening for the sweet music of heaven, I am. My ears are constantly listening and my heart is open so to feel it. I want to be apart of it but if I cannot be apart of it. I will express that heavenly music in someway, by speech, by song, by art or by writing. I will bring as much as I can into our world so to make the music of our God to be heard in every corner of the world. I want to see and to hear our Earth resonate the music of our God. I want to see everyone happy and singing praises to him. We owe him so much and he has done so much for us. May the music of his word and his love always be with you.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

The Thorny Twisted Vine

     In the beginning there was a beautiful garden. The garden provided everything one could ever need. The only thing that was needed was someone to take care of it, to cultivate it and make it grow. The work and time you spent in the garden it would give back many times more. The garden was perfect in every way.
     In the corner of the garden where there was very little light stood a lone thorny twisted vine. It look as if it was dead. It had no leafs just thorns. The vine done something so very special, it produced the most beautiful fruit in the garden. If you were to look upon it you would desire it immediately. It would take a strong will to resist having the fruit. The fruit upon the thorny twisted vine was always forbidden to eat. Even getting near or even touching the vine was discourage. There was a rule that the vine had to be left alone.
     A day came when someone in the garden could not resist having the fruit. The desire to eat the fruit was greater than the desire to obey the law. He reach out for the fruit upon the thorny twisted vine. The thorns that covered the vine prick his skin as he was reaching for the fruit. His skin being pricked by the thorns produced a little blood. The blood ran down the thorns and to the shaft of the vine where it was absorbed by the plant. He also experienced some pain from the prick of the thorns.
     His pain was felt by the plant itself. His pain seem to awaken that tiny vine and his blood seem to make it grow. He continued to tear the fruit from the vine and proceeded to eat it. When he ate the fruit it was like nothing he had ever tasted before. It was wonderful and very sweet tasting. He wonder why he was forbidden to eat it? It was very good tasting and it caused him no harm. He took no notice of the growth of the plant and the growth of the darkness surrounding the plant.
     He hurriedly went out to tell others about the delicious tasting fruit. The fruit was on his mind constantly. The fruit never made him feel full but left him wanting more of it. He convinced others to partake of the fruit upon the thorny twisted vine and those who ate the fruit convinced others as well.
     The vine grew and spread throughout the garden. The blood and pain of those who took the fruit gave it the nourishment it needed to grow. The darkness that followed the plant block out the light causing the other vegetation to die out. The darkness made the land barren. A perfect condition to which the thorny twisted vine could thrive.
     People's minds became fixated on having the fruit that the thorny twisted vine produced. They were no longer working in the garden beneath the light of the day. They were attending to their desire of having the fruit and happily eating it in the dark.
    The vine continued to grow and people continue to eat and only a few care much for the garden. Many who ate of the fruit of the thorny twisted vine was never satisfied. The garden which filled and satisfied many was now growing smaller. The light which shined brightly allover the land was growing dimmer. There were people who went out of the garden saying, "We no longer need it. The vine will provide all that we need."
    A generation has grown living only upon the fruit of the thorny twisted vine. There eyes have grown accustom to the dark, to them the garden is only a story that people tell. They have no desire to work in the garden but only to attain as much fruit as they can. Their thoughts are upon the thorny vine and it's fruit.
    Even though much of the garden has been taken over by the thorny twisted vine, there is still a little left. The garden and the vine seem to have switched places. Where in the beginning the vine was in a small corner of the garden. The garden is now sitting in a small corner of a vine filled dark barren land. The light which followed the garden has been ignored as well. However there is still a few who tend the garden and live in the light. They spend their time working to make it grow.
    The vine needs very little cultivating. It is cultivated by people's wants, desires and addictions. The garden needs the careful attention of others. It takes more time for things to grow in the garden, however it is well worth it.
    The garden bring fullness and satisfaction. It brings peace and light. The vine only brings want and more want. It's thorns brings pain and it's fruit brings emptiness. Those who are growing tired of the thorny twisted vine are slowly moving back into the garden and into the light. In time many will come and the garden will be spread throughout the land. The thorny twisted vine will be stuck back into it's corner and maybe there it will be forgotten forever.

Friday, December 3, 2010

Follow the Leader

     Follow the leader many are doing. Someone takes the lead then others follow. A game that is played through the centuries. A game that is sustained and played even today.
     Follow the leader a wall is built throughout time. A large wall built by the many generations. Each adding to the structure. Each carrying it on, to the next.
     I look at the pages that are being written and each is the same as the other. A page that is handed down from father to son, from mother to daughter. A page instructing us on how to follow.
     Who is in error? That is a hard question to answer, when all of our hands are holding a brick to add upon a wall. A wall that most of us do not even question. We just do as we are told. It is follow the leader a game we play from birth.
     Am I wrong? I asked myself as I look at my brick in my hand. Do I want to add to this wall? A wall that I have no control over it's direction. Where is it going and when did it begin? Questions I have never really asked myself. I just went along following after others building up a wall just because it was there.
     No more, No more following a leader that I do not even know. No more working upon a structure without a reason why?
     It is strange though to stop while others keep on working. I am no longer a part of the game. I have become a spectator, an outsider to that large group that is playing. It is strange to be awake while others are still walking around in their sleep. I can feel the loneliness of being separate but I cannot return to my slumber. What now, I do not really know but no more of just following the leader.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

What is Evil?

     Evil humiliates us and degrades us. Evil is a stepping down from our humanity. The actions of evil pours out of our weaknesses. It lessen our power and lessen our hope. Evil destroys our world and our very selfs. It brings us back down into the dust.
     Evil slithers around in the dark sneaking up and taking hold. It devours it, it consumes our goodness. It teaches us that we are bad. Evil lies to us and cheat us out of our happiness. It befriends no one but controls many. It does as it pleases and has no regrets.
     Evil darkens our world and blackens our hearts. It pushes out the light from our souls. It tempts us and talks us into badness. It walks into hell and it brings many of us with it. Evil does not die but lives to kill. Evil sends many to the grave without any hope.
     From one end of the Earth to the other it has made itself known. Like a consuming fire it has spread all over our world. Mothers, fathers and their children live in fear when evil comes to their town. It knocks on everyones door in hope that someone will answer. Answer someone will and become consumed by it.
     Twisted minds and twisted souls it leaves behind looking for others to do it's will. Like burnt out logs in a forest fire, peoples souls become. It cares not for anyone for it has no heart and it has no soul. It is an open door to darkness and to sorrow.
     The sun blackens and even the moon gives out no light, when evil comes to visit. The hearts and minds of those who it touches turns cold as death. The warmth of the day and the peace of the night is not within their grasp. Cold days and tormented nights is what they know. Evil grows the hunger and increases the pain until it is unbearable. Hopelessness and despair becomes a well traveled road. Each day becomes the same as the last.
     Evil blinds us and makes us it's slave. Chains of sin it puts upon us and with guilt it weighs us down. Evil tortures our minds and ties up our hearts. It suffocates our soul until we are almost dead. It puts us in a dark room without doors or windows. It tells us there is no way out. It feeds upon us night and day until we no longer exist.
     Unrelenting it is in what it wants, more souls to the fire. No man or woman is immune from its touch. Everyone must fight to keep it at bay. The weak in spirit will surrender and the strong will fight to push it away. Once defeated it will return to fight another day. It is a struggle for our life and for our love.
     Evil wins and it loses but it does not matter. It exist so to hunt it's prey. Like a wolf upon the sheep it preys upon us. It feeds upon our fears. Parasitic in nature it destroys the host. Run and hide we can do but it will find us. Face it and fight it we must do to keep it away.
     God help us and protect us from evil. Cleanse our bodies and our souls. Deliver us from temptation and deliver us from evil. Holy spirit come into our mind and soul. Strengthen our spirit so that we can fight evil and push it away. God come into our lives and guide us into the light. Open our eyes so that we can see and open our hearts so that we can love. Forgive us of our sins and continue to show us your love. In Jesus Christ name
I pray. Amen.    

Sunday, November 28, 2010


     There is a force that demands without end. It drives many one way then another. It is a force behind craving and addiction. It is faceless and it is filled with emotion. If we do not have control over it then it becomes our master. Many have relinquished their power to it and have become helpless against it. It feels like a strong need but it is only want.
     Want is a unrelenting soulless master hiding in the shadows of our mind. It craves and it desires us to fill it's needs. Want is never satisfied and it keeps on knocking at our door. How many times have you answered it and how many times were you left disappointed and left wanting something more?
     Caught between night and day our soul is pulled in both directions by the need of completion and the want of desire. There is a part of us that needs to be healed and that needs to be whole but our mind lies in a kind of darkness. We do wrong things in order to satisfy our needs. We make our wants our needs. We need our day of completion but our want of things gets in our way.
     Like mindless cattle in the field we keep trying to satisfy our wants. Playing into it's hands every time. Want is leading us down a never ending road. It is breaking our hearts and clouding our mind. The more it demands and the more you give in to it's desire. Want will take it's toll and leave behind our broken souls. Souls that continue to want until the end.
     Is the answer to my want here or there? Should I do this or that to satisfy my desires? You have many questions but want has no answers. Want stays concealed in the shadows and whispers to you the answer is over here. It leads you away from finding the truth in order to keep satisfying it's needs. A sweet dish you are to want, it wants you to keep wanting.
     No way out, No way out, you may say until a day of completion, a day of will, a day of strength, a day when we say no more to want. A day when the sun rises and sets no more. It will be a time of happiness and freedom for our soul. No more being lost and grasping for things that we do not really want. We will know exactly what we want and need. On that day of light, we will be the master over our want and no longer it's slave. We will look past our want and find our need rendering our want powerless against us.
     In the meantime, we must carry on and not give up. There is an answer hidden within our heart and mind. By looking deeply within we can bring our want under control, freeing our mind and soul.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Our Common Needs

     What is that connects me to those in the past, now and in the future? What is that I see in them that are the mirror image of me? What is it that makes me feel for them as they would feel for me? The answer our common needs.
     How hurtful it is for someone to be without their needs. I can feel for those who are without their needs. I can feel for those who are starving because they are lacking in their need for food. I hurt for the ones who are sad because they are lacking their need for happiness. I know their emptiness in the ones who are lacking in their need for love.
     There are those who are violent because they cannot find their need of peace. There are those people who are thirsting because lacking their need of water. I can understand peoples loneliness when they are lacking in their need for friends. It does not matter who or where you are we all have common needs.
     We all have a need for shelter, a need for warmth, a need for health, a need of purpose and a need for love. We have a need for kindness and for forgiveness. We need respect. We need to belong. We need the understanding of others and the need for worship and prayer. These needs of ours are inside everyone of us without them we hurt with them we are made satisfied. Our common needs ties us together as one.
     It does not matter what race or nationality or whether or not we are now or a thousand years ago our common needs are always there. If we are lacking our needs, we will look for them and some will even fight for them. Some of our needs we would die if we do not have them. Our needs are important to everyone one of us. War is started because some have and some do not. Our needs are essential to our survival and to have a happy life.
     I look at not the color, nation or race. I look at the people and their needs. Their needs are the same as mine. Their lives are just as important and their needs are just as important as mine. We are one family under God with common needs.
     Why does one have comfort and the other does not? Why are the needs of one met and the other goes lacking? Sometimes I have and sometimes not my needs. I know what it is to have and know what it is to not have. My life is like other people. When they are lacking I know their pain. I am link as they are to our common needs.
     Today I do have but tomorrow I might be without my needs. I cannot turn my back on those without for tomorrow I could be just the same. One human being is the same as the other when it comes to our common needs.
     Compassion I give because compassion I need, forgiveness I give for forgiveness I need and love I give because love is what I need. These are some of our common needs. Some maybe less and some maybe more but still these are our needs.
     Our common needs maybe a test for our human race. A lesson for one equals the other; an equation needed to be learned by all. If I can be hurt by my lack of my needs another can be hurt as well. I am unique and independent however my needs are just the same. My flesh the same as yours and so are my needs. I equal you and you equal me in just one image the mirror reflects all of us and all of our common needs.

Friday, November 19, 2010


     Time is slowly ticking away. Each moment a choice, a decision has to be made. Right or left, up or down, stay awake or sleep, decisions upon decisions I make. Is my decision the right one, sometimes I am sure and sometimes I am not. I will continue on in life asking God to help me along the way.
     What of tomorrow and what of today, did I do good or did I do bad in making my decisions? Did my opportunities past by me or did I see them in time? Is my life the way it should be or should it be better? What should I do and in what direction should I go? I have more days to live and more decisions to make.
     On and on through life I have to make decisions. If only I could make a choice and have the option of changing it later, somethings you can and somethings you cannot. Some choices are important and others are not, either way our life is made by them. May God grant us the wisdom in making our decisions.
     I have lived through many seasons. I lived through the rains and the storms, thorough the heat of the summer and the cold of the winter and yet I still have not figured it all out. When will I have clarity? When will I be able to totally see? I hate not knowing. One step into the darkness is one step leading me into the wrong direction. It is a long road leading to a dead end. It is a waste of my precious time. I walk around in life as a man who is in need of much help. Lord help me to find the right way.
     It is one more day to do things eat, sleep, drink and work a continuous pattern until my life ends. Doing the same thing over and over again, I want to say stop to everything so to have time to figure things out. The sun, the moon, the stars of heaven and the earth itself, there is so much to think about and only a little time to do it in. Again choices to make, decisions to be made with only the little information that I have. Woe is me for not being smart enough to do the right thing. One wrong step could bring me calamity.
     Mistakes be gone! Error upon error they weigh me down until I can barely walk. Lord have mercy upon this sorrowful soul. The past is gone and cannot be changed, what will I do? I must try to correct my mistakes in the present and hopefully learn from them. Somethings said and done cannot be taken back, smooth over and forgiven yes but not forgotten. Carefully I must watch what I say and do so that my future will be made better. Forgive me Lord for my nearsightedness and my mistakes.
     The road in living is a long road for some, filled with many twist and turns. What is ahead of us we do not know. Hoping for the best and doing the best we can to get through it. May God help us with our lives for definitely we will need his help. The past is gone, the present is here and the future is ahead of us. Time waits for no one. One day we are young and the next we are old. It is the way of our lives. Walking through life making our decisions, wrong or right is something we will have to live with and do.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

A Secret to a Happier Life

Keep on loving when all things are down.
Keep on loving even if there is no one around.

Keep on loving in your darkest hour.
Keep on loving when your bitter and sour.

Keep on loving if there is hate in your heart.
Keep on loving as you walk through the dark

Keep on loving when you are pounded to the ground.
Keep on loving when you are all the way down.

Keep on loving even if you cannot see the sky because of the clouds.
Keep on loving even if the insults are so mean and so loud.

Keep on loving when there is no hope insight.
Keep on loving when you cannot find any light.

Keep on loving when your nearly dead.
Keep on loving when all the voices tell you not to in your head.

Keep on loving and soon you will see,
A person that you always wanted to be.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Diminishing Myself Before God

     I feel ashamed of myself. I turned away from God. I walked in front of him instead of behind him. I made myself more than I am. In my heart I have secretly whispered listen to me as if I was the messiah.
     Every time I stand in a lofty position I fall. Every time I race ahead I stumble. In a haughty manner I condemn and in the same way I bless. I state my views and opinions as if it were God's command. God help me, I have lost my way. I am just a small man upon this Earth. What I think, say or do is very small compared to God.
     My heart is not as big as God's heart. What I cannot forgive he can. Where I lack in love he has abundance. Even if my love has limits he is beyond those limits. He can reach his hand into the deepest darkest pit in hell and rescue a lost soul. God knows our hearts, soul and spirit. When we are ready to come to him he will be there waiting.
    God understands the universe and I understand very little. Where I can see chaos, he can see order. Where I see disaster, he may see renewal. What God can see and understand is beyond my comprehension. If I am to stand before him, I must learn how to bow before him. I must always be humble before my God.
     I do not want to hurt or demean anyone, by my words or deeds. I wish to only reflect God's spirit and to do his will. It is so easy to hurt and not so easy to show love. That is why I must carefully examine my heart and intentions. I want to be a good christian and not an injurious man. I want my eyes always to be focus upon God's kingdom and my heart close to God. I do not wish to stray but to stand firm in his favor. My God has done much for me and I want to return that love.
     I want to tell everyone to be peaceable because peace seems to leave our hearts and minds so easily. Have faith in God for he is working so hard in our behalf. He is moving mountains so that we can have a new world and a new place to live. He is telling the army of heaven to stand ready. He is crowning his son with power and glory. He is making all things new again. There is so much going on that we do not see or understand.
    I have got so caught up in my own little world that my sight has become so narrow. All of heaven and Earth lies before me and I can barely see. How can I stand or speak before anyone if I am stumbling over my own two feet. I must learn to walk again and to see again and to speak again. I will always stand before God as his student and his child to do otherwise would bring dishonor to myself and to God. He is my master not I. I will keep on praying to God to give me enough humility to understand and to learn.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

A Change of Heart

     I will not serve up something rotten within me and present it to the world. Why give something that is sickening to your own self and give it to another? No I will not imitate others and follow in there sinful nature. I want to add to our world something that I am proud of rather something I am shame of. I want to be remembered as someone who contributed something beautiful rather than something ugly. I say lets make our world beautiful by letting out the goodness inside.
     Why do something that you will have to lie about rather than something you could be proud of? I want to get up in the morning and look at myself in the mirror and be happy at what I see. I want to have around me things that I can openly show. Inside I feel so free when I have nothing to hide. When you have things to hide you always feel fearful of exposer. I want to feel good about myself and of the things I have done.
     I want to walk through the gates of heaven with my head held high rather than with my head facing down. I want to approach Jesus Christ with a smile rather than a plead of mercy. I want my heart to be open rather than filled with regret. The time is now to do so what I must do in order to have that happiness.
     The change I am talking about and the change that I must have is following the spirit of God within my own heart. It is looking at the children and all the people around me and reaching out my hand to help. There is so much hurt that has been given out now is a time for healing. I want to heal our world with the God given goodness within my own heart.
     I believe it is not an impossible task. Jesus Christ has already shown us that change is not impossible. He has change so many of us and we will never be the same again. We were touched by his love and by his words about God's grace. It is not impossible to change your heart if you really want to. God's spirit is there waiting at the entrance of your heart. All we have to do is just open up our hearts and let it come on in. Through his spirit God will guide our way.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

What, are we Fed?

     From a young age I was fed certain things and I accepted them. I did not know from what origin they came. I just accepted them without question. I lived my life according to what I was told. If a man was born and raised in darkness would he know he was living in darkness? What we are fed at birth we become accustom to whether are not it is right or wrong.
     I wonder to myself if I am living my life by the illusions of darkness rather than the truth of the light. How can one completely rid himself from a lifetime of lies and deceptions? Can I truly say to myself I can see? I believe I am not seeing the complete truth.
     I am not infallible. I can make mistakes and misunderstand situations. I can only see things through my own eyes. If there are clouds blocking my vision, my vision becomes unclear. I see one way while others may see another. Who is right and who is wrong if our eyes are not totally open?
     I will try to watch what is being place on my plate for me to eat. However I know a few wrong things will slip by me. They will cloud my vision and become apart of my speech, forgive me if you possibly can. I am imperfect and trying my best to have clarity. I know I must rely heavily on God for the understanding that I need. My eyes will be looking to his word and my heart will be saying a prayer. In time I know with the Lord's help I will be able to see and to understand a little more of the truth.

Friday, October 29, 2010

More than Words

     With words we speak of great things. We tell others how life should be. Oh how we cheer and how good we feel when we hear a great speech. Afterwards when the cheers and the good feelings diminish, life continues on as it did before. How disappointing it is when we hear how life could be but it is not. Words alone are not enough in making a difference in our lives more than words are necessary.
     Trust is more than words. One needs to know that he has loyal friends. Those who he can depend and rely on. We need people that we can confide in. Those who will not turn against us when our backs are turn. Trust is not given by our words but is proven by our actions. We need to feel secure around the people that we are with.
     Belonging and being accepted is more than words. It is being approved of and being comfortable with the people that you are around. It is being treated with respect and with dignity within that group. It is about being apart of a group that will accept you as you are. We need to have acceptance in order to feel that we do belong. We need the comfort that it brings to our lives.
     Love is more than words. Love is important if not the most important thing that we need in our lives. Love can be talked about with words but it is mostly demonstrated by our actions  Without love we are empty, with love we are full. Love is the force that brings us closer to another. With love we are made to feel accepted and even cherished. If we found love we have found our happiness and our well being. If we have love we are truly bless.
     Being understood is connecting with others and it is more than words. Being understood is finding those people who really care about you and about what you have to say. It is a two way street they know you and you know them. It is communicating clearly to each other. Being understood is finding people who really understands. It is coming to know each others hearts. It is finding people who really care about knowing who you are. By being understood others can sense how you are feeling without you saying a word. Being truly understood goes beyond our words and in to the spiritual.
     Purpose is more than words. It is knowing that we are doing something meaningful, something that we were meant to do. We need to have purpose so that everyday can be special. Purpose can give us a reason to get out of bed each morning. It gives us a reason to keep on living. It gives meaning to our existence. It goes beyond words and fulfills our soul. Purpose gives us a direction to go in, a direction that we are sure of.
Purpose makes us feel that we are needed within our world.
     Friends are more than words. Friends are your support. They are people who you can trust. They are the ones who you can open up your heart to. They are the ones who you can love. Friends are a group to whom you can connect and be free. With true friends you can let down your guard and trust them completely. I have to admit we need each other and we do need to have friends. We need someone to talk to, someone to be with, someone who understands, someone who can help and someone who cares and someone to be close to and that someone is our friends.
     We need something beyond us, something that is greater than us. It is something more than are words can describe. I need to believe in something more than myself. I refuse to believe we are just ants on an anthill, just another species of animal upon our Earth. I must believe that God has bless us, making us much more than animals upon our Earth. If I were to believe that man's intelligence was the highest of all. I would say that we are all doomed. I look at our Earth and I look at universe and I know there is a greater intelligence at work. Man is intelligent but there is another force, another intelligence at work that dwarfs the intelligence of man. I believe in God and many of you believe in him as well, something within us needs him and that something tells us that he exist. We need our God within our lives. We cannot completely describe it. It goes beyond our words and we feel it within our hearts. I feel strongly that God is essential to my existence.
     We need words to communicate with, to express our feelings and our emotions but there are things that we need that is beyond our words. It is trust, belonging and acceptance, purpose, love and being understood. It is having friends and believing in God. We need action as well as words. Action that are accord to our well being. We need not people telling us how the world should be but people doing something about it. People whose hearts are sincere and devoted to God. People who are doing more than telling us about the Bible but showing us how it works.
    The spirit of God moves across our planet and works without saying a word. God's love touches our hearts. His spirit performs miracles. The ministry of Jesus Christ is spoken with words but everyone knows there is more to it than just words. There is love, faith, trust and devotion. All of these goes beyond our words. We need our words but more than words are necessary in living or lives upon this world.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Upon the Mountain

     When does a man really die? When his hopes and dreams die. When he comes to a conclusion that no matter what he does and how hard he tries his life will not get any better. Upon a mountain is where he lives, a mountain created by the past.
    Generations of people have come and gone and each of them has left their mark upon our world. We must live with the actions of those who have came before us. Right or wrong we inherit what others have done. On a crumbly rock filled road we travel slipping and falling along the way. Upon the mountain we fall and we are hurt.
     Placed before us upon the mountain are jagged rocks of fear and violence that cuts into our soul. Large boulders of various problems roll down upon us. Loose rocks of doubts weakens our resolve and keeps us from moving forward. Upon an injurious path we walk upon the mountain.
     What hope do we have when people stack the world against us. Like lambs to the slaughter we are born into the world with wolfs waiting outside our door. The mountain causes our world to shake and tremble and all who live upon it to fall. Upon jagged rocks we are cut and beneath boulders we are crushed. Where can we run and where can we go to be safe upon the mountain?
     Building our world is hard indeed because of the great task of fixing. Smoothing down the rocks of the past and breaking down the boulders is itself a lifetime of work. Cautiously we must build the mountain so that the next generation is spared. Pain and suffering we have to much of let there be happiness tomorrow. Work and more work we will have to do so to build us a livable place upon the mountain.
     With worn out bodies and worn out souls we all eventually become part of the mountain. It is up to us whether or not we leave behind a jagged rock of violence or a none injurious stone. Choices that are made well, will make the future stable and secure. If we build the mountain right, tomorrow will not have to be feared.
     Our hopes and dreams can be realize if we can move the boulders of our problems and shovel the rocks of doubts out of our way. The mountain of our past can be changed by the surface of the present. By our hands and by the spirit of our Lord we can do the necessary work. The mountain can be changed into a livable and hospitable environment. No more falling down being injured or cut. The mountain can be made to be better.
     There is so much work to be done and so little time to do it. Like ticking clocks we are winding down our bodies are slowly dying but there is no other way or no other place to travel. We are all here living upon the mountain of the past. Whatever road we chose to take it still lies upon the mountain. It is up to us whether or not we sweep away the slippery stones of doubts beneath our feet, smooth down the jagged rocks of violence and fear and break down the boulders of our problems. Whatever we will leave behind, others will have to travel upon. If today we decide to sleep what will the mountain look like tomorrow?

Beautiful Child, Believe

     I want the sweet taste of a new beginning, of a different life in a different world. I want to live my life the way it should be. I want to find a way to my happiness. Darkness, be no more.
     What is the price I am willing to pay in order to have my happiness? If my happiness comes with a price then I have not found my happiness at all. I believe that true happiness is a free gift from the spirit with no price tag upon it.
     What is deeply within my heart is where my happiness is. It lies in the innocent of a child that I once was. A time when all things were possible. A time where I carried much hope inside.
     What has taken away my happiness? What has rob me of my smile? It was when the child within became beaten up by the world. Hope and innocent became lost and many tears followed.
     In my silence my spirit spoke to me. It said, "Abused child weep no more. Abused child lay down your head and rest. Happiness has not abandoned you. Happiness has not left you. It is still there within your heart. Let down that guard, you put around your heart and begin to believe again.
     Beautiful child do not be listening to what the world is telling you. Do not be believing their words which brings you down. You are beautiful and you do count. Let no one tell you different. A star in heaven you started out to be and a star you now are. Bring forth that light within and let all the world to see it."

No Choice to the Way I was Born

Could I been a dog, could I been a cat,
could I been an elephant or could I been

At birth I had no choice to be no other
but me. White or black, rich or poor,
beautiful or not is what I got. I had
no choice to the way I was born.

With arms or no arms, with legs or no
legs, a mind of a genius or a mind of
a child the dice rolls and I have to
accept it.

No choice, No choice to where and how
I begun. Bless or cursed I had no choice
at all. Hate me not for being my mother's
and father's child. Innocent I came into
this world.

Monday, October 25, 2010


     What is this emptiness,this void within? It is like a dark hole within the soul. You can never quite fill it or satisfy it. It is connected to nothing but the darkness. The emptiness is numbing to the soul and to the spirit.
     The emptiness within causes you to reach out and try to fill it up. What you seem to find is always less and never more. The emptiness fails to connect to anything. Failure after failure the numbness increases and the darkness grows.
     The emptiness drains the body of its energy and strength. A feeling of hopelessness is felt. The strong presence of sadness overshadows the joy of life. Happiness cannot be felt because it cannot be found.The emptiness turns inward and blinds our eyes to any hope.
     When you are empty inside you desperately reach out to anyone who might understand but you rarely find anyone who does. Confused and lonely you walk around in life looking for answers.
     The emptiness feels like the coldness of the grave making you feel half dead and half alive. The dead part wishing for a speedy end and the alive part praying for a happy life.
     You pull away from reality and try to hide from it. You no longer want to fail again. No longer do you want to reach out and find nothing there. Your body has grown tired and weak from the struggle of hanging on to only thin threads of hope. Everyday your soul slips further down into the black depths of this emptiness.
     If you cannot find a solution to your emptiness then you will become it's victim. The dark void will pull you down to the bottom. At the bottom the emptiness becomes unbearable. It is a bottom that could lead you to insanity, despair, poverty, violence, self-destruction and even to suicide and the grave.     In this emptiness you feel like the ground opened up and swallowed you. You feel like the light inside you was switched off somehow. You believe you are not a person who was born to a life but to suffering and to death. Everyday is another day you have to fight to stay alive.
     Because of the emptiness you might have become an outcast, someone who is discarded and ignored. You may have become angry and now you are taking it out on others. You may have choose to hide your sadness with a false smile. You might even have chosen to stay away from everyone. Your emptiness has effected you in so many ways.
     The ones who know about the emptiness of the soul, know that they are in trouble and are sinking fast. Unfortunately we do not know what to do. Without the light of hope we cannot find our way out. Without outside help we have little chance of getting out of the dark void. The greatest trouble we are having is finding enough strength within to hold on until we can find or receive the help that we need.
     Time has become our enemy if we are still carrying the emptiness inside. Everyday brings internal anguish and pain. The pain of just being alive. We know deep down within our heart that it does not have to be this way. We could live happily and cherish life if only our emptiness were healed and gone away.