Monday, August 22, 2011

Ecclesiastes 12:13,14

     13 This is the end of the matter: you have heard it all. Fear God and obey his commandments; this sums up the duty of mankind. 14 For God will bring everything we do to judgement, every secret, whether good or bad.

Isaiah 65:17-19,25

     17 "For here I am creating new heavens and a new earth; and the former things will not be called to mind, neither will they come up into the heart. 18 But exult, YOU people, and be joyful forever in what I am creating. For here I am creating Jerusalem a cause for joyfulness and her people a cause for exultation. 19 And I will be joyful in Jerusalem and exult in my people; and no more will there be heard in her the sound of weeping or the sound of a plaintive cry."
     25 "The wolf and the lamb themselves will feed as one, and the lion will eat straw just like the bull; and as for the serpent, his food will be dust. They will do no harm nor cause any ruin in all my holy mountain," Jehovah has said.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Rev. 7:9-17

      9 After these things I saw, and, look! a great crowd, which no man was able to number, out of all nations and tribes and peoples and tongues, standing before the throne and before the Lamb, dressed in white robes; and there were palm branches in their hands. 10 And they keep on crying with a loud voice, saying: "Salvation [we owe] to our God, who is seated on the throne, and to the Lamb."
     11 And all the angels were standing around the throne and the elders and the four living creatures, and they fell upon their faces before the throne and worshiped God, 12 saying: "Amen! The blessing and the glory and the wisdom and the honor and the power and the strength [be] to our God forever and ever. Amen."
     13 And in response one of the elders said to me: "These who are dressed in the white robes, who are they and where did they come from?" 14 So right away I said to him: "My lord, you are the one that knows." And he said to me: "These are the ones that come out of the great tribulation, and they have washed their robes and made them white in the blood of the Lamb. 15 That is why they are before the throne of God; and they are rendering him scared service day and night in his temple; and the One seated on the throne will spread his tent over them. 16 They hunger no more nor thirst anymore, neither will the sun beat down upon them nor any scorching heat, 17 because the Lamb, who is in the midst of the throne, will shepherd them, and guide them to fountains of waters of life. And God will wipe out every tear from their eyes."

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

God does Care

     How many people curse God for their misfortunes but God is not responsible for our condition. Our first parents disobeyed God and we have struggled ever since. Lot of the blame rests upon the unforeseen occurrences that happen within our lives, some were by accident and some were caused by others. Accidents will continue to happen and people will continue to hurt one another but I am thankful for God for still remaining with us and helping us to cope with our problems.
     Some believe God has forgotten about them or he is not listening to them but God knows them and he does listen to our prayers. The trouble starts when we think how God should answer us. How he should solve our problems and when he does not do as we expect him to we become disillusion or disappointed in him. We think that he does not care but how many of us knows exactly how things work in heaven? We try to bring God down to our level of understanding and think within our mind how God being like us should behave. God instead behaves like himself the God of all creation. He see things differently than we do. He does things differently than we do them. We cannot judge God as we judge ourselves. God is above our understanding and our judgement.
     I to have thought God is slow at acting on some matters and that he should be doing this or that. I even had doubts that he was even listening. I had anger for God that he was not helping people enough. Upon my little spot upon the world I thought I was seeing everything that god was doing however my eyes was not beholding his invisible active spirit. I cannot see how his spirit is working upon every heart. I cannot see beyond where I stand. When trying to understand God, I have to see with my heart and to believe by faith and not by sight. The spirit of God is very active even though I cannot comprehend or see what it is doing. I still believe in God and his power to make things right.
     Some people will fall away because they have lost their faith and do not believe in God anymore. Our world is hard on us but God is not. He put the human race in a paradise in the beginning and he has plans for our return someday. He is not wanting us to suffer. He wants us to be happy and well. The hardship that we are facing is by being on the outside of paradise. When Jesus Christ returns he will restore our world back into a paradise. God does not want us to be harmed. He wants us all to live in this new world that he is giving to us. A world of peace, prosperity and love.
     Forgive me God for not understanding you. Forgive me of not really knowing you. The world has blinded my eyes and caused me to have doubts. I do believe in you my Lord and God. My soul awaits your arrival. Lord forgive me of my impatience for there are many who are suffering upon our world and I want that suffering to end. I have become tired of the world and it's ways. I want a new world the world that you have promised us, a world bathed in your light and love. Lord continue to have mercy upon me and let my relief come soon. The night has grown darker and many are becoming lost. Lord grant me the strength to carry on.
     Even though I have grown tired I will push onward towards that new day in your kingdom. I will keep my faith and my hope strong in you. Lord I will wait on you and hope that others will to. Even though our world may want me to do otherwise, I will hold on tight to my belief in you. Lord continue to shine you light down upon us so that our eyes will be more open to your ways. In Jesus Christ name I pray. Amen.

Friday, June 3, 2011

Reaching for My Highest Goal

     In truth I am not where I want to be. I have not accomplish my highest goal. The goal of being upon the highest step of the ladder of my spiritual maturity. The goal of being the closest that I can get to God while I am still upon this Earth. The goal of being in a sea of God's love every moment of my life and being just like Christ a reflection of that love. I am lagging so far behind in reaching my goal. I have my doubts whether or not I will ever accomplish it.
     I have walked down a long road in life but there is still much road left to walk down. I have almost given up but I keep on drudging on through life. Maybe God is helping me with a push every so often. I pray to God to keep on giving me the needed strength.
     I must keep in mind this one important fact that we are children of God. We are loved by him and cherished by him. Our society may demean us but our God holds us up in high regard. Jesus Christ valued me enough to die for me. He show me by his compassion that I deserved life. Jesus Christ gave me his love and a hope for my future. I am still valued and loved in the eyes of God.
     I have so much still to learn and so much way to go. I still have doubts in reaching my goal but with God's continuing help I can cross that finish line of my maturity and receive my victory. With God's belief in me it will only take my belief in myself to work pass my problems. I have to believe that I am worthy of God's love. I have to believe I am a valuable person.
     Who will I believe God or man? My answer is God above all others. He speaks the truth where others will tell me lies. I need to live with the real truth and not a man made version of it. God is the real truth. Jesus Christ said that he is the way, the truth and the life. I do believe him. With God on my side, I am always a winner.
     With the help of the Holy Spirit, I will not only walk down the road in life, I will run down it. With God's love I will endure. I will reach the end of my goal by climbing to the top of the ladder of my spiritual maturity and claim a victory that will last forever.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Echoes Through the Ages

     When God spoke the words of creation. Those words created the blue skies above and the land beneath our feet. His words created the oceans and the fish within.
     God used his words to create a man and a woman and we are like an echo from those first words. A first word was used to make a species and then the rest follows after like an echo throughout time.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

My Folly

     My narrow views are my folly. My wants and desires are my folly. Misinterpretations, anger, confusions and hatred are a product of my ego's own error.
     My ego has ruled my body. It has over shadowed my true desires and that error has kept me away from a greater understanding. It keeps me from discovering my own true self.
     I once had an experience of my ego separating from my spirit. I could see clearly how my wrong attitude or understanding of past situations colored my present decisions. The spirit is pure but the ego is tainted by sin and can be influenced easily. What seem like the right course at the time was not the true spiritual way that was required. My ego over shadowed my judgement.
     My ego created a rift between my inner spirit and my outer self. A barrier between me and God. My folly continues even today. Misinterpreting the information that I get from this world, placing it on the negative side rather on the positive. Avoiding society rather than getting involved. Getting out of life what I put in to it, not much at all.
     I believe the greatest predicament that Adam and Eve faced was not the expulsion from paradise but having their right to choose. God believes in us to make the right decisions and he does so even today. By our right to choose we learn to be responsible for our decisions. Our choices becomes a measurement of our spiritual development. It would be easy to go about as a marionette having God to do all of our living for us. However we are individuals with the ability to choose and choose we must, living with the consequences of our choices.
     Christ conferred with God before making any major decisions. He diminished his ego. He increased his connection to God everyday. Seeing Jesus Christ was like seeing God. He did not lose himself but found himself. The golden light from God shown brightly upon him. Like Christ, I to needed to make the effort to reach for God's helping hand. If I never looked to God, how will my spirit ever grow? I cannot settle for less are I will become less within myself. We are individuals but we are not divided from our source of life. We are more than we think we are. We are more than we show ourselves and to others.
     The ego is like an unruly child that must be discipline. It must be brought before the Father regularly for instruction. This is necessary in order for the ego to grow into a mature responsible adult. It will reflect the light from which the instruction came. Without this meeting it will never grow. It will be like a child that is confused, angry, always wanting and starved for spiritual food. The ego will be searching for it's meaning and purpose. It will feel separated and unloved. It will feel forgotten as if no one cares.
     We as a society neglect our spiritual development. We are not just flesh and blood but born from spirit and depart in spirit. The spirit of God that is within you must be feed regularly. God's spirit is apart of us. It is the best part of us. We cannot ignore it.
     Walk with God and become his children as Christ instructed us to do. Then there will be no more darkness and confusion. The golden light of God's knowledge and wisdom will lessen our folly and bring peace and harmony to our souls, our egos and our spirit.

Monday, May 30, 2011

A Pep Talk to Myself

     I will open my heart to love and my soul to take hold on life. I will live as a person should live, everyday to the fullest of my being. I will let the darkness leave and the sorrow to go away. My mind will not dwell on the things that I cannot do but on the things that I can. I will push onward and forward even if many others are still standing still. They will have to catch up with me instead of me catching up with them. Today is a new day, a day of inner and outward building of my new life.
     I refuse to die upon this world knowing only sadness. I will seek out happiness and come to know love. The darkness will not win but the light of a new day will. Even though I feel I am crumbling down inside it is still possible for me to be built back up again.
     I am still a believer in God. I believe he can do miracles. If God so wills it, it will be done. My life is not over yet. I have still so much living to do. So world watch out, I have only just begun. I have so far live my life only in the shadows, only in the darkness where no one could see me but now I am stepping out into the sun. I am taking hold on to life and embracing God with my whole soul. I am bring his power, his love into my life.
     I will be no longer content at setting on the sidelines and watching my life pass me by. I am stepping into that stream of life and becoming apart of it. By the will of God I will learn to live my life to the fullest. My spirit will be on high and I will be happy and I will have found the love that I had been looking for.
     I will not be following others into hell but I will be following the Lord into everlasting life. I will try to see the world as he sees it and to live my life as he would. I believe Jesus Christ is the key to my new beginning. A key that will open many new doors to my future.
     God, help me on my life's journey. Help me to find the way. Let me not shrink back to where I was but to move ahead to where I can be. Help me to overcome the obstacles that lie ahead. Energize my spirit and strengthen my soul, for a new day is beginning. My new start to a wonderful life. In Jesus Christ name I pray, Amen.  


Sunday, May 29, 2011

By Being Happy

     If someone is happy you can be sure that their happiness will not be hidden. A person who is sad will sometimes pretend to be happy. It is very rare to find a happy person pretending to be sad.
     In sadness there is a need but with happiness there is giving. With sadness you are looking for something but with happiness you are looking to give something. Happiness brings a abundance feeling to your life where as sadness makes you feel deficient in someway.
     You view your world differently when you are happy then when you are sad. A dark world you see in your sadness but when you are happy the world looks so much brighter. When you are sad it is hard to do work and life feels rough. When you are happy you can work much easier and life feels good to you.
     I believe the answer to most of our own problems is finding our own happiness. In being happy we are bring something positive to our world. Happiness is an important part to our well being. From our own abundance within, others can benefit. Happiness can bring selflessness back into our world. By being happy our hearts will be more open and our lives will change for the better.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

I Need a New Attitude

      I am unappreciative of the things that I do have. I always feel like I need something more and when I do get more I am still unsatisfied. I thank God for what I do have. It is not his fault that I am not happy that fault lies with me. I take responsibility for my own actions and my own attitude. If God is pointing me in a direction to a better life and I refuse to walk down that path it is me to blame for my own life's condition.
     People do blame others for their unhappiness and they say it is all their fault. The truth is we let them take it away from us. We give them the power to make us happy or to make us sad. How they treat us is how we feel about our own lives. We are like people with outside switches attached to our bodies whenever somebody feels like hurting us all they have to do is to flick that accessible switch to make us feel sad or angry. They become our controller. You become the puppet and they your master.
     The new attitude that I need is taking control of my own life. It is saying to myself I am responsible to where I am headed and if I want to change I must take action and make the effort to change. My new attitude is no longer waiting around for somebody else to take charge. If I want something to happen then I will try to make it happen.
     In truth people are struggling with their own lives and trying to find their own way. I to must find my own way as they are trying to find theirs. I realize my anger is not at them it is at myself for not being more self-reliant. I do not need to be waiting on somebody else to make me happy but to find that happiness within myself and even to love myself in spite of everyone else. I am not going to wait around until everybody is happy and then live off the leftovers. I am going to have a giant scoop of it for myself. I am going to fill my life up with joy, happiness and love. I am going to live in peace and hope that others will to. I will always place my faith in God and ask him to keep guiding my way in finding that new attitude.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Lukewarm or Hot?

     What am I thinking and doing about my life? I hope and pray that I am doing enough to enter in God's kingdom. I have walked along the edge of the fence between good and evil for to long. Many are saying they wish the Lord would return very soon but I wonder are they really ready for his return. The Lord is merciful, kind and loving but on his return to Earth he is bring a sword of God's judgement with him. I even question myself, "Am I ready to meet the Lord?" I do want him to come however will I be received or to my dismay, will I be judged?
     In my mind I believe I will be received but I do not want to be in error on that final day. I rather face the hard truth about myself now than to face my Lord and be rejected. I do not want to be living a lie and deceiving myself. I want to live with the truth with my eyes wide open. I want to see myself how the Lord sees me. If I am doing something that will keep me out of his kingdom I want to know about it so that I can correct it and be accepted.
     So many are walking on the borderline, me included and here is what the Bible says what will happen to those who are walking on that line. In revelation chapter three verses fifteen and sixteen, "I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot; I would thou wert cold or hot, So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth." Those who walk the border will be rejected on judgement day. I have to commit to God and make up my mind totally and unswerving in serving him. No more little bit of the world and a little bit of serving God. It must be God over the world every time. I must put God first in everything that I do. God must know my devotion to him. I have to make my stand for God now.
     What made me think that I can get away with only doing token worship. One small coin out of my surplus is not enough. God demands a whole a lot more. Am I going to be counted worthy by slumbering my days away while others for God put their lives on the line? Throughout history men and women gave up their very lives in serving God. What they fought and die for, I to must fight and even be willing to die for.
     Satan and a third of the angels that fell from heaven is still among us and there still is so much work to be done. Slumbering is not an option, it is a surrendering to evil. I must put myself in the front lines of battle, no matter what hardships I will face. I must carry a banner for God all the way to victory. I want God to see and all the angels of heaven that I am a loyal and unquestionably a servant of the Lord Jesus Christ.
     Awake my soul to the condition of my life. Look through the eyes of our Lord and know the truth. From this day forward slumber no more. Take up the sword of the truth and the large shield of faith and run to the battlements and make your stand for God. Dig in deep and do not let Satan advance no longer. Push back the evil upon the our Earth and make room for our Lord.
     Let him see me doing good works on the day of his arrival. In so doing there will not be any question on who side I am on. No more walking along the border but standing squarely in the territory of our Lord. No more being lukewarm neither here nor there but being hot on the side of God. I want to do what is right and no longer doing what is wrong. I want the Lord to know that I love him and want to be with him in his kingdom.

Friday, March 25, 2011

A Child's Understanding

     I have often asked God why can I not do this or that. I point out to God that our society and most of the people today practice certain sins and I asked why do you keep us, today Christians restricted. Why not give us a little bit more freedom. I then remembered why we are called children of God. He is our Father and does not a father or mother sometimes say no to their children, especially those who are about to hurt themselves.
     A small child does not sometimes understand the action of their parent when they say no. The child will cry and scream because it cannot get it's way. It believes the parent is being mean. However the child does not understand the parent is protecting him from harm or teaching him the right way to behave. The parent's action may appear to the child as cruel and restrictive but in reality those actions are beneficial and life sustaining. The parent is showing love to the child not cruelty. In a like manner our heavenly Father is saying no to us out of his love for us. He wants us also to live and not to die. His word said that the wages of sin is death and not life.
     Our Father wants us to know that sin equals death. He wants us to love him not to hate him when he saids no to us. Even if he did give us an explanation and told us exactly why, would we being his small children understand? Would a small child of ours understand if we were to carefully explain our actions? It depends on the age of the child or his maturity. If the child is to young then he will not understand why the parent is saying no. How are we to understand our God whose age, knowledge and wisdom is limitless. It also depends upon our maturity, our spiritual maturity.
     Many of us, me included still do not understand all the ways of God. Sometimes we just have to believe by faith and not by understanding alone. Even if we still cry and scream for not getting our way we need to still remember our Father's love for us. He wants us to healthy and happy. He is our creator and he knows what is best for us. Even if I do not always understand him I will always show honor and respect to him. We need to be patience with him as he is with us, for the day of our maturity will come and so will our understanding.          

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

I have a Picture

     I have a picture within my head of God's future kingdom. Its a picture of a land flowing with milk and honey. A picture of men and women living in peace and having hearts filled with love. A picture of a world working together to make our lives much better. A world filled with a kinder people, a gentler people, a people who show God's love between themselves.
     I carry that picture wherever I go. I hope to find it existing somewhere and seeing it take hold and grow; But for now the picture is still within my mine and I pray that it is in the mines of others as well.
     I cannot let my mine settle for anything less when I know there is so much more our world could be doing. I have a choice and I choose the best picture we can have today and for all of our tomorrows.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Where are Your People Lord?

     I have asked this question of the Lord many times in prayer. Where are your people Lord? The Lord did not answer me right away or maybe I could not understand the answer. It was only when I got close to some people that then I truly understood where his people are. They were not in some faraway place or hidden away in some secret location. To my surprise they were all the time standing right in front of me.
     What I saw as a stranger to people and not as their friend was a mask that they were wearing. A mask that reflected the world instead of their true selfs. Some people are afraid to let down their guard for fear of being hurt. They put on a hard veneer in order to deflect any blows that might come their way. I could not see them as they truly are because of that protective personality that they were showing me. They put a shield over their true personality because of their fear of rejection.
     I thank God for having the opportunity to see past the mask on a few occasions. I saw people as they truly were. They are not so hard as they pretend to be. I saw people who are afraid and confused. I saw people who are lonely and are hurting inside. I saw people who were not so different from me. The only difference was that they have gotten use to wearing the mask and I wanted to throw mine away. I want to be myself all the time and be that person that God wants me to be. A person who is not afraid of what others might say. I want to be a person who is happy and comfortable with his own existence.
     I did lay down my mask and took a chance to reach out to people and (to my surprise) they in turn reached out to me. I then saw clearly the answer to my question. Where are your people Lord? They were always there, hiding behind their masks and standing right next to me.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

What I am Afraid of

     What I am afraid of that gives me cold chills at night and in the day. It is looking in the orchard of our Lord and not finding one ripe fruit left upon a branch. I shiver at the thought of our Lord's return and I am standing in an empty orchard.
     Lord have mercy upon my soul and let me see the ripe fruit that are still left upon the branches. Let me help in someway in keeping the fruit upon the branches and save me from my fears and worries.
     I see the devil with a stone as large as a boulder and he hurls the stone at a large tree representing God's people. With all his might he throws the stone at the tree. It is a large stone representing immorality and greed. With the might of the stone he brings down the ripe fruit of God's people. When the tree is hit with the stone it rains down fruit upon the Earth and once the fruit is upon the ground a rot of corruption sets in.
     To many times I have seen those who once was on fire for God cool off and become seduced by the world. They who was once servants of God become instruments for Satan. They were once ripe fruit upon the tree but were shaken to the ground by the stone thrown by the devil. Innocent and pure were they to God but now stand unclean and blemished before his throne. I have seen many come to God and many walk away.
     I know by the words of God I will not be standing alone when our Lord returns but I still have the fear of it. When I see many leaving the ways of God, I fear that the orchard might have become barren. I want to reach up and hold the fruit on with my bare hands but I cannot keep the fruit on if it has already disconnected from the branch. Everyone of us has to make a choice whether to stay on or to fall off. I choose to stay on however I would like to have some others to stay on with me.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Honoring the Image of God

     The image of God is who we are. We have a reflection of him within. Runaway and hide from him we cannot do for we carry apart of him with us. Respect to that image and honor for it, for out of innocents it was born. Tainted not by the world but made pure by God's spirit, each of us at birth a perfect image.
     I cannot harm that image of God without doing harm to my soul. It was never meant to suffer or to be in pain. It was never meant to bleed or to die. The image of God was meant to be perfect and to last forever but the devil is having his way. He is rolling that image through the mire and the filth. He is enjoying in doing harm to it in every way. For not with honor, nor with respect will he give to it. Out of his disgust he will trample upon it with his hate. He demeans it and humiliates it and makes it bow before him. The image of God he does not want to see. He wants to see an image reflecting himself.
     I believe the blessed image of God will always stay and become even more brighter everyday. No devil can permanently dim his image or make it go away. We the image of God will overcome and be what we were meant to be. I believe a new world lies ahead of us filled with the image of his love. Bright as the sun and all the stars in heaven our spirits will be. We are the image of God and no one can take that away.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

My Desperate Need to Build a New Fire within My Soul

     The fires that I feed are the ones that burn inside of me. How were they lit in the first place and why do I keep feeding them the fuel that keeps them burning? I believe it was because I did not realize I am the one that kept these mental fires going. I know now that I need a new fire in my life and to let these other useless fires burnout. Why waste so much of my time on something that is hurting me?
     There are many sparks out there like fire flies that try to keep these old fires burning but all they are doing is burning me out. Not uplifting me, not helping me but only giving me more fuel to burn. Why burn without a cause or a reason but to be only someone else's fire? They may feel they need my heat to keep them warm. It may warm them but it does not warm me. The heat within is devouring my soul. It has weakened me inside.
     A stupid man I have been for just being another log upon the fire. I may not have total control on what comes in but I do have control over what comes out. I will not give another satisfaction at my own expense. I will take control and try to put the old fires out. I will try to build new fires and find the fuel that is needed for them to burn. A hard task this may prove to be but I know somehow that it is not impossible.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

A Heartfelt Wish

     I want to wish the Japanese people well in their recovery. Many lives were lost and many lost everything in this disaster. I feel for their lost and their pain.

Friday, March 11, 2011

In Just Living

     From our basic understanding and from our experiences the truth can be known. If something burns our fingers we know there is danger and to stay away. It is the same way we can tell if someone is bad by their harm that they bring upon us or to others. From our experience we come to know what is bad for us and what is good. Even though we are taught certain things from birth we can still see through the lies and find the truth. In just living we can come to know our world.
     In just living we will come to know the loving ones and the cruel ones. We will see those who are succeeding and those who are failing; those who are hiding something and those who have nothing to hide. In our mind we will see the distinction between good and evil. In just living we come to know that which is helpful to our survival and that which is trying to destroy us. We will come to see the beauty in our world and also the ugliness within it. We will see there are many different kinds of people and that a particular race is not a definition of good or evil. In just living we can come to know how to better our lives.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

The Way I Feel

    I cannot guess or predict what tomorrow will bring but I can only hope it will be better. Even though I am only a drop in the ocean of life I can say that this drop loves God. Whether or not I am remembered or forgotten does not matter to me. What does matter to me is my relationship with God. If I am loved by him and respected I can say I have done well. As long as I am with God I am happy.
     I believe his people are scattered like seeds to the wind. They were planted by his own hands in every nation so that everyone will come to know him. They live as sheep among the wolfs. Trying their best to live a Christian life and make a difference. They are vessels beaten upon by the raging seas. Vessels that are used by God and loved by him. These people are God's people and he will never leave them. They are his people forever. They will be with God as long as God shall live.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Let Me Be Me

     Let me have a chance to express myself, so to let my spirit soar above the trees. Clip not my wings or tie up my legs but let me be me. I must soar like an eagle and fly like a dove so to feel free. Bind me down not with your judgement nor weigh me down with your guilt. If there is judgement it is your judgement and if there is guilt it is yours as well for I cannot be made to feel guilty for just being me.
     If the lion still strikes and the leopard pounces and the blood pours out of me. I will die as myself and not as someone wants me to be. Stones maybe thrown and hammers may come down upon me but I will not give in and become a broken man. It is better to live a short time as yourself then to live a lifetime a lie. Hardships I may have to face and crushed I may become but no one will take my identity away. I will be free in spite of it all and be just me.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Survival of the Fittest?

     Survival of the fittest is what I hear from some people. They lived their lives by it but I was not aware we were living in a jungle and living by the laws of animals and beasts. I thought we were humans living under a higher law of humanity. Perhaps I have been mistaken and the nature of the beast controls over us. Because of my non-compliance to the laws of the jungle I have been made a stranger and even an outcast to those who live by them.
     It is so easy to hurt others in the jungle if you view your life that way. You look at others like an enemy, someone to manipulate and take advantage of. Everyone around you maybe except your family are objects that get in your way. You make the law of the beast into the law of men. You cast away all that we are and you hinder all that we can be. You do things only for yourself and do not consider anybody else at all.
     You do not care if people are suffering or even if you are causing that suffering as long as you are not the one suffering. Beast are to the right and left of you. Beast are all around you. In the jungle is where your mind is fighting for your survival.
     As for me, I see no jungle but only in the minds of those who hurt others for their own advantage. In my eyes, I see a world filled with people with a heart and feelings just like me. I see us not living in a jungle but living upon a world that was created by a loving God.
     I do care what happens to you, to me and to our world. It matters to me when people hurt. It matters to me when they cry out for help. I can hear and see their pain. My eyes are not closed and my heart is still soft enough to feel. A heart that can no longer feel is indeed dead.
    We who live upon this planet are not beast but human beings with a kind and loving heart. Only by choice you have close yourself off to others and took up a defensive stand against them. Only by choice you decided not to stand like a human being but to crawl around like a beast, ripping and tearing at your brothers and sisters.
     I believe those with a survival mind set can change. They just need to soften their hearts just a little and to put down the defenses that they put against us. They need to take a long hard look at those that are around them and see that they are not their enemies at all.
     We are not beasts but human beings. Jesus Christ loved us all enough to die for us, can we not find enough love within our hearts to be kind to one another, to treat each other with a certain amount of respect and human dignity.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

The Age of the Prodigal Son

     If Adam and Eve would have stayed in paradise everything would be alright. However out the gate he and Eve went into the thrones and thistles upon our world. They gave up all that they had for what they did not possess. Believing in what God had forbid was good to eat. They doubted the word of God and believed in the lie that the devil told. The lie took them down a road to sin and death.
     The prodigal son like Eve desired the forbidden fruit. He left his paradise, his home and went into a foreign land after it. There he ate his fill. However like the forbidden fruit of Eden it soured his stomach and brought him down into a spiritual death. What he thought he wanted he did not want nor even need. The lie was at work within his mind pushing him down the same road to sin and death. He finally walked away from the lie and found his happiness, when he returned home. Adam and Eve could not return to their home in paradise but they knew there lied the truth and their happiness.
     This is the age of the prodigal son. Where people are still believing in the lie and looking else where for their happiness. The bread of life is from God and so is the truth. A day will come when we will get tired of following the lie. Our eyes will open and we will see the truth. Then we will finally return to our Father, our true home. There we will find our happiness and our peace.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Like Clay in Our Hands

     What more are we than God's glorious creation? Being created in his image, we are like our Father in heaven. We are creators too. We change our world and our surroundings according to our desires. We tear down and we build up. Whatever we think of we do. From the depths of our mind we change our world. Like clay in our hands we build our world as we see fit.
     Darkness and light there is a mixture of it in everyone. It swirls around inside our heads and twists and turns inside our souls. Like painters we paint our world from that which is inside us whether or not it is the sorrows of darkness or the joy of the light. We paint our world that image from within.
     Our children are fed or they are starved by our own hands. They cry out in fear or they laugh with happiness by what we do. We can build a happy home or a house of sorrow. We can choose to paint the world around us with our pain or with our love. Whatever we are giving out is what we will have. It is written whatever we sow is what we will reap and so shall it be.
     If we speak and do things differently our world will change but if we do the same things over again it will remain the same. What do we really want for ourselves but a better life in a better world? It can happen if we form it with our own hands. If it is to dark, we can bring to it more light. It is up to each of us to place our hands upon the clay and form our world into a place in which we like to live.
     Many people support this existing world designed not by them but by others. A world which brings them pain, sorrow, sadness and despair. What is preventing them from taking up the clay themselves and designing a
new world? Out of their mouth righteousness could be spoken and by their hands goodness could be spread. Change could take place if they would only try. From within we could build a garden that would make everyone happy. Like clay in our hands a new world could be born.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Who is the Better?

     Who is the better? It is not I. I am not better than anyone of you. Jesus Christ die for all of us and he loves all of us in a very special way. So I am not walking upon this world higher than you. We are equally loved by God.
     I find it very frustrating when others find me intimidating because I am a Christian. They believe I sit in judgement against them. I judge no one. God judges all. I am not God. I live my life to please God and if others do not, it is their choice. I do not force my beliefs on anyone.
     If anyone is the better it is God and his son Jesus Christ. Through their mercy I was saved. They have forgiven me of my sins. I am no greater than anyone else. Their love and forgiveness is there for everyone. God does not favor me over another.
     I do not put on airs around anyone. There is so much suffering in our world I do not wish to add to it. As a Christian I have found some relief to my own suffering in God's word and in the love of Jesus Christ. In my heart I hold tight to those words and his love. I love righteousness over wickedness. Others who have not come to know God may not understand my love for God and his righteousness. They may interpret that love as condemnation of their lifestyle. I am no threat to anyone. I just love the way of life that Jesus Christ has shown us. I believe his way is the only hope for our future. Even if I do far short of those high standards I will keep on walking upon that path. I will not pressure others into believing the way that I do. They must make their own choice in how to live their lives.
     Jesus Christ is a perfect reflection of ourselves. Some people when looking into that perfect mirror may feel inferior or condemned. For me when I look at the perfect image of Christ I see what we could be and what I want to be. I cannot be perfect but I will not get angry over it. I will continue to follow Jesus Christ example.
     Some people just refused to face their own imperfections or they may find some pleasure in them. They will turn away from the perfect example of Christ so not to be reminded of their own imperfect condition. They may even lash out in anger at a Christian who holds on to Christian principles. I have found this to be true in my life. I have faced verbal attacks in opposition to my Christian beliefs. My very presence makes some people feel uncomfortable. I do not wish to make them uncomfortable but I will not compromise my beliefs for their comfort. I will hold tight to my faith in God.
     I am not any better than anyone else. For we were all once sinners in the eyes of God until we were redeem by Jesus Christ. Today some people may stand in opposition to me but it is entirely possible by the love of Christ that they will be my friends tomorrow.

Friday, February 25, 2011

Standing on Level Ground

     It is hard to push away all the illusions and falsehoods, so to be able to see our world with clear eyes and an open mind. Those who can have a great gift. As for me I am only able to partially see and to understand. I am working hard to make what I have in part to be full however it is yet to be.
     From the little bit of insight and truth that I found, I will say it is better to be standing upon level ground than to be elevated or to be in a low place. Level ground is common ground for everyone. When you are in a low place looking up at everyone. When you are elevated you are looking down at everyone. However when you are standing upon a level place you are joined with many and looking straight ahead.
     Looking straight ahead you can clearly see those in front of you. If you were looking down they will be beneath you or if you were looking up they will be above you. By looking straight ahead they will be on the same level as you. You will be able to see them as your equals.
     The circumstances of life are different for everyone. If we were someone else and live their life we might become just like them. By standing upon level ground you will be able to see yourself in them as they will be able to see themselves in you.
     I believe Jesus Christ understood this truth. What Jesus Christ was fortunate to have within his life he shared it with others. Jesus Christ was also merciful and forgiving. He kept his eyes straight ahead upon his path. He could have walked above us but he chose to walk with us. He did not place himself beneath us but lived with us as a loving brother. Even though he had high authority and kingship he still was a humble and approachable man. He could see deeply within our hearts and minds. Jesus Christ loved all of us as his own.
     Through Jesus Christ those who once stood in a low place stands much higher and those who stood in a high place became more humble. Together they now stand upon level ground treating one another as brothers and sisters. They now are more capable to understand and to love one another.
     Standing upon level ground you can approach one another without inferiority or superiority. You can clearly see the hardship and the struggle that others face. You can see them having the same problems that you are having. We are not so different from one another. Upon level ground the separation from each other disappears.
     In the beginning the human race was established upon level ground. Only by choice others migrated to the higher and lower places. Separation soon followed. No longer were they united but divide by the different levels. When Jesus Christ returns we will be united and standing upon level ground once again.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Within the Dome of Paradise ( only a heart felt wish )

     As I stand within the dome of paradise I can feel all the love around me. My heart is finally free and my mind is so clear.
     I am reborn and no longer dead inside. I can feel things that I could never feel before. The people around me have love and their lives are at peace. What a wonderful place this is. A place that I can lay down my head and rest.
     My soul is like a sponge soaking up everything in this realm of paradise. My spirit is being energized and renewed. The emptiness within me is being filled and my throat is no longer parched and thirsty. This is truly a part of heaven. A place that I will dwell and make my home.
     Within this dome of paradise I lay all my anxieties to rest. I am no longer afraid and feel weak inside. The pain within me is diminishing and my troubles are no more. This is the first time that I ever felt alive. This is the first time I ever been completely happy inside.
     I feel so bless to be within this dome of paradise. God has answered my prayers and shown me what life can be. He took mercy upon my soul and delivered from the grave. By his own hand he placed me in this land of healing. I feel no longer that I want to die but to live as much as I can. He turned me around and show me what life can be. I was standing on the edge of doom and now I am standing in a land of hope and happiness.
     To my surprise I am eagerly waiting for tomorrow. I am eagerly waiting to start a brand new day. I have been changed and I am no longer the man I use to be. God has bathed me with his spirit and cleansed my whole soul. He has given me another chance to live again. He has healed my heart so that I can feel love and be able to give it. I am truly a blessed man, blessed by the mercy of God.
     I will never ever leave this place where I am, for here is the answer to all of my prayers. All things are known and felt here. My spirit is raised beyond the earthly realm and now it touches heaven. I feel the entire universe around me and inside of me. I am connected to it and it is connected to me. Here is the place where my spirit reaches out and touches all.  

The Dome of Paradise ( an inner vision )

     There it is, I see it so clearly. It is there, right in front of me. I see people smiling and laughing. Children playing joyfully. I see people treating one another with respect and with love. All of them are close to one another like a family bound together by a spirit of love. There they stay and live on a world that is made perfect.
     My heart aches as I look upon the scene. Where are the entrances? Where is the door? What has separated me from them?
     I beg and plead within my soul to whatever power can let me in. There is a dome, a barrier like thick glass that I cannot transcend. Looking in and longing is all I can do. The answers to all of my questions lies within that dome of heaven, that dome of paradise.
     I cannot force my way in, nor can I break the glass. I would not want to anyway. I want acceptance and not forced approval. I want to belong and not to feel unwanted. I know there has got to be a way in but I just do not know how or where?
     Someone please give me a clue because I do not want to walk away. I do not want to go back from where I came. There is nothing there but here is everything. Please God let me find a way in. I beg you to let me live within that dome of love, that dome of happiness.
     Many have gone ahead of me and somehow I fell back. Somehow they found the keys and I found nothing at all. Why are they blessed more than me? What did they do that I did not? If only I knew I would have done it. Lord let not my ignorance keep me out. Please Lord have mercy upon my soul. Open my heart and my eyes so that I can see and know.
     I bang my hands upon the warm glass and try to push my body into the structure but all my efforts fail. I will not leave for it is better here than out there. It is better to live just outside of paradise than to live in the coldness of the world. It is better to have tasted a small piece of it than to have never tasted of it at all. I will not leave until a door opens to let me in.
     Lord here my words. I will not ever let that hope of paradise leave my heart. Lord let me in, Lord please let me in.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

The Beauty Within

     As the saying goes beauty is only skin deep. How many people are fooled into believing that the beauty of the flesh is the beauty of the spirit. The truth is the beauty of the spirit is where the heart is. It is where the the love is within the soul. One can pursue the flesh and have a lifetime of heartaches. If one could close his or her eyes and look not at the flesh, they would have a greater chance of finding true love. The flesh can be a deception but the spirit is always true. By looking at the spirit rather than the flesh, one will find their way.
     One can be surrounded by the beauty of the flesh and still be chilled to the bone. In the heart is where the love is and there is where you will find the warmth. Even if the body is beautiful but the heart is cold, your happiness will not be there. Examine the spirit before you look at the flesh so you will know what is true.
     In my opinion love is beautiful no matter what vessel it comes in. Love beautifies the soul. A person who shines forth their spirit illuminates their beauty within. Being around those who can love is better than being around those who just know how to show off their flesh. Those of the flesh have little to give but those of the spirit have much to give. The flesh mostly takes but the spirit mostly gives.
     Physical beauty maybe pleasing to the eyes but inner beauty is pleasing to the hearts of everyone. God loves the loving soul and so do most people. Physical beauty will lose out to age but inner beauty will only get better with age. The spirit will go on forever but the body will last only for a short time.
     Not all that is beautiful is beautiful. Satan was a most beautiful angel in heaven however he fell out of God's grace. You can spend a lot of money to make you look good but true beauty lies within. The improvement of the inner spirit will prove more valuable to one generation and the next than the improvement of the outer soul. Be clean and presentable yes but do not be trying to impress others by your body alone, your spirit must be clean and presentable as well.
     I believe that Jesus Christ was and is the greatest example of what beauty should be. His beauty from within shined brightly for all the world to see. His spirit was so beautiful. His love for God made him beautiful. He was and still is the perfect example of what we all could be. He is the beauty of God and the beauty that lies within ourselves.
     The beauty of the flesh is only skin deep but the beauty of the spirit goes much deeper. If our heart condition is right our beauty within can enrich the lives around us. It is nice to have the beauty of the flesh but it is even nicer to have the beauty of the spirit. It would be good to be remembered as a reflection of Christ rather than just another reflection of the flesh.

Monday, February 14, 2011

The Jewel of God

     In the beginning God made man and woman. He fashioned all of his creations with purity and love. Just as a skill sculptor, he chip away all the undesirable traits. What was left was a beautiful jewel whose facets reflected every aspect of God's spirit. It was perfect in every way. The first man and woman was apart of this great and beautiful jewel of God.
     God wanted all of his creations to honor his design. He did not want them to separate or defile it in any way. A great star they were pulsating with the light of God's holy spirit. They were united as one family in heaven and upon the Earth. However, the first man and woman took for granted all that they had. They had everything. They had no wants. Everything was provided by God's own hand. He loved all of his creations so very much. God wanted them to continue to be a family forever.
     Man and woman were soon to separate from their God given paradise. Man and woman became curious of the pieces of the jewel God had discarded. God warned them to let them be. Man and woman disobey their Father and proceeded to do what they wanted to do. They pick up those pieces. Their focus no longer upon the whole but upon the separate discarded pieces of God's creation. Those pieces once touched by man and woman brought in division and imperfection to their spirit. They became like those God discarded pieces. No longer were they whole and complete in spirit but now had a division within their souls. No longer were they a family in harmony. They were now a divided family with their own wants and desires. They were separate from their Father, their life source of happiness and contentment.
     The first man and woman of God felt their sin. They knew what wrong that they had done. Paradise, peace and harmony was lost to them and now a reunification had begun. These beings were like those discarded pieces on the sculptor's floor. They needed and wanted their place back in paradise.
     This now tainted creatures of God could not be restored to the perfect jewel. They had to be redeem and made pure again. There had to be no imperfection found in them. God could not let them to return to their upper position with sin remaining upon them. They would have affected the entire heavens if allowed to remain. His brightly lit jewel would lack luster and sparkle. No longer would it be a guiding light but a light without shine, all would be lost to him. His creation was not to be lost. What God had created would remain forever, pure and without sin. His love for his other loyal ones could not be compromised. These separate beings needed to be purified and washed of all sin.
     God still had love for them and he brought his son into the world so to lead them home. Jesus Christ took the right hand position in the heavens. He did not touch what God deem unholy. Jesus Christ obeyed his Father and in his obedience he became the Lord of Lords and the King of Kings for now and throughout eternity. He never separated himself from God's precious jewel.
     The House of God is a clean house, no one can enter unless wash by the blood of the lamb. Those entering must be pure in his sight and loyal to his ways. They are the ones living their lives in harmony with God's Holy Spirit. Only then they will be brought back into his keeping.
     The men and women of God will some day return to paradise. God has provided a way it is up to them to take. The more Christlike they become the more complete and whole in spirit they will be. By doing this, our Lord will welcome them back into his kingdom. The holy Jewel of God's creation will shine brighter when they become apart of it once again. Becoming one family under one God, one spirit and one saviour. They can then truly dwell in the house of our Lord forever.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

They Will Not Come Lord (a vision of insight)

     I said to him,"What a beautiful banquet that you have prepared. There are fruits and berries of every kind. There is bread to eat and wine to drink. Upon a table in a field you have place it."
     "They will not come Lord." I said to him. "They will not come to this place to eat and to drink. Please, Lord I wish not to see you hurt or disappointed if no one comes to eat. I am here with you Lord as I will always be, now and throughout eternity. I have concern for you as you are my friend. I wish that your heart will not be hurt if they turn away."
     He said to me. "Just give them more time to come." He was telling me not to quickly to judge others. He wanted me not to cast my doubts upon them but to be patient and to wait and see what happens. Just because my eyes were short sighted did not mean that all was lost. Unlike me he has no doubts at all. He has much confidence in that his lost sheep will come home.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Words about God

     The rules of government may change like the many directions of the wind but the breath of God steers a steady course across our land. It is unchangeable and unyielding to any forces upon our Earth. Even by the defiance of the nations, armies, man, beast and devil the spirit of God cannot be stop or even diverted in anyway. Even if the majority of the people stood up and demanded this or that it would not matter, God is still the ruler over us.
     The winds blow and the Earth shakes and the waves of the sea dashes against the shore. Men and women are thrown about as those forces move against them. What rocket will they shoot or bomb will they explode against the Earth and the sea? I laugh at the arrogance of men. "I am more powerful than God", they may say until the Earth covers them or the sea drowns them or the wind blows them away. Oh what small creatures we are to God as we spread our tail feathers for all to see.
     What dreams our we dreaming and hopes that we are hoping for that is taking us away from God? What is it that we are desperately wanting that God cannot be apart of? Can you live so independently from your maker? The air we breath, the food we eat and the earth we stand on is given to us by our God. I do not know how we can live without him? We are infants who can barely walk do we think we are now able to run? Look at the truth and turn away from the lie and see exactly who we are.
     Truth is God's word. The truth is an unbreakable sword that cannot be broken. Many men have tried and broken themselves upon it. God and his word is forever and no one is able to change that. It word be foolish to try. We came into existence through his word. Take away his word and we are no more. The truth is we are bound to God and his word forever.
     Love who can live without and why even try. God is love and the two are inseparable. We need love and we need our God. We cannot have one without the other. To push God away is to push love away. God and love are always together and never are they apart. Why does our world talk so much about love and not about God, the originator of love? It is another lesson not learned and on our hands and knees we continue to crawl. Will we ever gain our maturity? Upon our world many lessons are taught but few are learned. In heaven angels sing praises to God and give thanks to for his love.
     The time of God is drawing near and his son will be returning soon. Glory be to God and glory be for all those upon the Earth for our King is on his way. Will we be ready to meet him or will we be walking around lost? He has made a way for us and all we have to do is walk along his path. Will our world embrace him or will it still reject him? Oh! men and women awake for soon the day of our Lord will be upon you.  

Friday, February 4, 2011

I Have a Crush

     I have a crush on the world. The world to me is like a seductress who is always looking for a good time. She enjoys many pleasures and is very pleasing to the eyes. Like a school boy I look upon her with want. She teases me and plays her games. She gets so close and then she pulls away so to entice me into her arms. Her lovers are many and she always wants more. She is without prejudice and she invites everyone to come to her. She has a beauty and a personality that pulls many blindly to her. Yes, I have been very tempted to go to her as well.
     I do not know why I am so fascinated by her. I think it is my flesh that is so enticed by her. I have an internal battle going on within me. My flesh seems to love her and my spirit is repulsed by her. She is around me everyday beckoning me to join her but at what cost my soul and my spirit.
     I cannot go to her(our world)for she is like a two sided coin one side pleasure and the other side pain. She devours her lovers one by one and then she spits them out. She wants to have everyone to love her but she has little love for anyone. The old, the poor in health and the destitute she has little time for. Her time is mostly spent on the young, the healthy and the rich. Those who beg for attention usually goes away wanting. She promises so much but she delivers so little. She is so charming but her heart is so cold. The people that are hurting and are dying she does not even care for.
     Our world loves only one and his name is Satan. She prostitutes herself before him. He is her lover and she is to him. She dances before him and sing her songs of love. She delivers all that she has to him. All her lovers are delivered into his hands. The devil takes and demands more and the more she has, the more she gives right into the devil's traps and snares.
     Even after knowing all of this, there is still something inside of me that still looks upon her with desire. I believe it is the desire to belong and to be wanted by a world in which I was born. I have no desire to be her lover. I would like to have her respect but she does not respect those who see does not know and she does not know me. I am a stranger to her. I stand away from her instead of standing next to her and she resents me for doing so. Her beauty attracts me but her inner soul repels me.
     She is not loyal to anyone. Those who have committed themselves to her are often hurt. She only stands by them who benefits her whether or not they are right or wrong. Like a wave in the ocean she moves to and tho going to one person and then to the next. Those who love her endures much heartache.
     I cannot love a world in such a state as it is in and be happy. I am a moral person and a Christian. I cannot love such an unfaithful woman. I must be true to my God. I must be able to believe in and trust in someone and God is that someone. The world is chaos and God is order and I choose order over chaos. I stand with God rather than the world. Our world has caused much pain and sorrow and only our God can make it stop. Even though I have a crush, I will still choose God over the world.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

I Forgive You

     To relieve myself of my mental anguish and pain, I forgive you. I forgive you of your trespasses against me and the hardships that you place upon me. I forgive you of the pain and suffering that you have caused. Like a dumb beast you have walk through life not knowing the damages that you have done.
     The wind blows so hard against us and the sun burns so hot. The waves of the ocean breaks so hard against our shores and the rain from the clouds floods over our lands. But I will say to the sky I forgive you and to the land beneath my feet, I forgive you and to all the waters upon the Earth, I forgive you of the damages that you have done. For out of innocence the wind blows, the water moves and the ground shakes. Who is to blame? No one at all.
     The world may think what I have to say is only trivial but a temple that is swept clean is a mighty fortress against evil and a lighthouse against the darkness. When the heart of an individual is made pure his witness will be powerful and strong. His words will reflect the truth of our Lord and his spirit will shine forth righteousness. The heart that is free of hate will have room for God's love.
     In forgiving I am taking hold on freedom. Freedom from the steel bands placed around my heart by my hate. It is freedom to love once again and to be happy. In forgiving I am taking out the garbage and cleaning out my soul. I am raising my hands up towards the light and embracing the love of heaven. In forgiving I become like a light from heaven and a practicer of Jesus Christ's love.
     Forgiveness is a wonderful thing without it hate becomes trap inside. Hate creates a pressure from within and forgiveness will release it. Forgiveness is a starting point to healing and an opening point for love. Once our heart is free, love can take hold and heal it. So I will continue to forgive so I can continue to show love.

Monday, January 24, 2011

The Calming Waters

     As I look out over this body of water I wish for the peace that it has. I pray for that calmness within my soul. I look at the world and I see the storm, the turbulence that is around me. The storm touches my soul and it takes away my peace. What is this world trying to do to me, kill my soul and my spirit?
     I know that storm started long before I was born but I yearn for the calmness of still waters. Those before me may have sustained the storm and even said this is the way it is but I know better for I have seen the stillness of the waters and felt it's peace.      

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Rejoice and Be Happy

     Oh how I wish I could change the world through a speech, a song or by some action. I realize that I cannot change the world but only that part that is ready for change. Even if it is a very small part then it was well worth the effort. I cannot carry the world upon my shoulders. I would only tire and fail at what I was trying to accomplish. People will go their way and I must go mine.
     A man can do only what he can and if he puts forth his best effort then so be it. If all the world lies in a spiritual desert and you work hard to provide an oasis, then you have done well. You have provided a weary traveler a place of rest and comfort. He will remember your kindness and it will touch him in someway. A little bit of God's spirit will go with him and maybe that will produce an oasis somewhere else.
     Do as much as you can and rejoice and be happy in your work. God wants his workers to be happy.

In Between World

     Thoughts colliding, fighting for space to be alive. Like plants in a jungle they fight to push up and out of the crowd to gain life. Some stop growing while others push out and flourish.

Friday, January 14, 2011

A Theory

     A man's or a woman's heart that is filled with love. He or she will be more willing to give love.
     A man or woman whose heart is empty. He or she will be looking for something to fill it.

God's Grace

     God's grace surrounds us. We can try in vein to ignore it, block it or even turn away but his grace is still there. We can either stand separated from it's sea or we can become apart of it. It is our choice to make. As for me the door of heaven is open and I choose to walk on in.
     God is my salvation. Sin is my pain.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

The Close Bond of God's Love

     God's love draws us to him. In that perfect way of God we are striving to pull all things closer to us. We who are following in the way of Christ are trying to deepen our love towards everyone and everything so there will not be a lesser love within us. For example a girl that was a stranger becomes a girlfriend, a girlfriend then becomes a wife and a mother. By the power of love a girl that was a stranger became a girlfriend, wife and mother. By God's love we are pulled and bonded together.
     God gave us the ability to attach to all life by our love. We bring life closer to us just as god brought us closer to him. We were once strangers to God than we became acquaintances to God and then his friend and now best friends. By the power of his love he has brought us to him. God has made us into his image and his love is apart of us.
     God's love is the blood from his heart. His heart beats and pumps it throughout his creation. All of us are standing within that flow of love. Like cells of the body we are fed and nourished by his love. Then in a like manner we return his love so to keep the love flowing freely. Those who are without God's love are like blockages to loves flow upon life. They are neither receiving or giving their God given nourishment.
     Our love always flows to God and it flows from him. His love spirals in both directions at the same time so to maintain the flow of love into all life. There is always an ample supply of God's love for anyone who is accepting it and willing to give it. The more we become apart of that flow of love the more we will be changed by it and the deeper our love will grow.
     The attitude of today's society restricts us from freely giving our love. We hold back for fear of misunderstanding. Our present condition will not change until all of us become aware there is more to life than satisfying our flesh. We desperately need to satisfy our spirit. Our freedom to express our love and drawing close to others maybe limited in someway now. However we can keep trying to find a way to express and expand our love toward others. We must keep up the flow of God's love within our lives and in our world.
     God's love will keep revolving around us. As long as there is life there will be God's love. We are within that flow and we are apart of it. God will always be apart of us. There is a great need to be like our heavenly Father and a need to express his love within our world. I know by faith that our God and Father will keep showing us how to express his love within our lives and in our world.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Destruction to My Soul

     Woe to me for never having what I need and never knowing what I needed to know.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

To Forgive

     In this world there is a barrier that I have a hard time getting over. Hate is a barrier that stops me in my tracks. When I see something that I hate or disapprove of, I seem to focus completely upon that one thing. I want to do something or change something. My mine still lingers upon that one thing, blocking out all other things in my life.
     There are many bad things done in this world that I cannot stop or even change. People continue to hurt one another physically and mentally and what can I do about it? I remember the words of Jesus Christ when he said "Forgive them Father for they know not what they do." Yes those are very good words to live by. The cruelty within our world that I cannot stop, I will not let that hatred or badness within my heart. I will continue to forgive as much as I can so to keep moving on in life rather than agonizing over what I cannot prevent or even change.
     The kingdom of God is within us. It is reachable to all of us. Why choose to hurt or cause suffering? The goodness of God is always close by and so is his love. I must continue to forgive others for their trespasses. In hope that one day they will have a change of heart. It is sometimes hard to forgive but there will come a time where you must forgive and go on in life.
     We can try to change things however if we cannot maybe it is best that we forgive them of their ignorance. Perhaps those who are hurting others are hurting within themselves. A tormented mind lies in darkness and not within the light. Those standing within the light of God have peace within themselves and for others. Forgiveness is something that I must continue to practice so to have that peace within my life.
     You do not have to approve of someone to forgive them. You just need to forgive them to heal your own heart. Put your trust in God and his love to make things right. Live for him. God forgives us everyday. I will try to follow in that way. Maybe I will fail but I will keep on trying. I know that I cannot be as forgiving as God, but I will try to do my best. I believe that a day will come when people hearts will be more kinder towards one another and there will be a lot less to forgive. On our Lord's return our Earth will finally be at
peace and the meek will truly inherit the Earth.
     In today's world I practice patience, tolerance and forgiveness. My heart still gets angry and disgusted at what goes on in our society. However I cannot spend every moment of my life dwelling upon the badness of our world. I will keep putting faith in God and his son Jesus Christ. I believe in their power and their love. If I find it hard to forgive God's holy spirit will always be there to strengthen me and to teach me how to forgive.  

Saturday, January 8, 2011

I Love You? ( an illustration )

     There is a man who is drowning and he hears the words I love you. There a man homeless and freezing in the cold and he hears the words I love you. There is a man who is deeply hurting inside and is paralyze from within and he hears the words I love you.
     Each of the three men heard the words I love you but that was all. The drowning man stayed drowning. The homeless man stayed freezing and the hurting man stayed crippled. The words I love you were only empty words.
     There were other people who saw these three men and they said no words at all but took action instead. The man who was drowning was thrown a life preserver and was pulled in to shore. The man who was homeless was brought in from the cold and made warm again. The deeply hurting man was given medical aid and hope for his soul. Those who took action over words saved those three men's lives.
     I love you without action is just another breeze blowing in the wind. However I love you followed by action carries much weight and is truly a powerful combination.
     I rather the world be silent and carry out actions of kindness and love then to be noisy with empty words. It is better to be silent and do something than to be loud and not do anything at all. There are a lot of people that need some sort of action rather than just hearing our words of compassion. Hearing just words is nice but hearing words backed by action is a whole lot better. For some it can make a difference whether they live or die.

Friday, January 7, 2011

The Wealth Within

     If a rich king were to give all his wealth to a beggar would that make him less than he was? Would the beggar be more just because he was now rich? Is it not true that the measurement of a person is not in what he has but what lies within his heart.
     If someone has a good heart and is poor, does he not have more treasure than someone who is evil and rich? If I held up in high regard only those who were materially rich, I could mistakenly be admiring a devil sitting upon his throne. One must look at the wealth within rather than just looking at the wealth on the outside.
     The rich could be poor and the poor could be rich depending on what is on the inside. The rich could be richer and the poor could be poorer depending on what is on the inside. Our true selfs is what is on the inside and our outer selfs could be something we just made up for others to see.
     In the end who will be the ones that are wearing the crown? It will not be the ones who are trying to buy their way into heaven. God will be the final judge and Jesus the door through which we can enter. They will decide who wears the crown and who will be rejected. In the end the ones who wears the crown are the ones with a heart of gold rather than just having gold. They are the ones who will be entering heaven.


Wednesday, January 5, 2011

To You O'Lord

     To you O'Lord I give my life, my soul and my spirit. I render myself and my service to you. I stand before you as your servant. I place my life within your hands. May I always stand by your side. To you O'Lord I pledge my loyalty and my love.
     To you O'lord belongs the universe and all that is in it. How bless is our world to have you near to us. How bless we are to have you as our God. With clean white robes you have clothed me. You have taken away my sins. You have raise me up from the darkness and brought me into the light. You have understood my heart and accepted me and gave me your love. My loving Lord you have given me much and you have given me my reason for living.
     To you O'Lord I owe my life. From heaven you keep shinning down your love upon me. Out of your love you gave me life through your death. The whole world stood against you. It hated you and put you to death. It tried to shut out your light and to silence your words. But it was they who were conquered by the power of your love.
     Glory to the king of heaven and of the Earth for all the power, the might and the glory belongs to you. At the right hand of God you sit and there you rule over us with your righteousness. All the angels of heaven bow before you and honor your name. I to place myself under your subjection. I to give you my love from my heart. To you O'Lord is our worship and our prayers. Who is greater than you Lord? No one.
     I will wait on your arrival. I will stand ready to receive you. I will keep holding strong to my faith in you. Let your day be soon Lord and may all of us keep praising your name until the end of time. To you O'Lord is my salvation and my hope. Everyday I will continue to pray and to ask you to come and be our king now and forever. In your holy name I asked it. Amen.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

The Lord's Temple

     I come to your temple to worship you Lord. In humility I bow before your throne. I cleanse my soul and become your child, your son. My heart belongs to you. From the fountain of living waters I drink, from your words I am made strong. Your love and spirit refreshes my soul.
     Near your temple I stand and live for there is no where else to find righteousness. In your temple it is pure and no sin is found. The glory of God shines brightly from within and all around it. Only those who truly love you can stand within that light. Only there we can find comfort.
     We who are your disciples call your temple our home. It shelters us from the coldness of the world. It gives us hope. It protects us from evil. Your temple is the only place we have to go so to find everlasting happiness, peace and love. It is a place that never turns us away but opens every time we knock.
     Your sons and daughters gather around your temple and praise your name. They pray their prayers of devotion and love. They never leave because there is no where else they want to be. They are your servants forever. From your temple their spirits are nourish and made strong.
     In this world there is only darkness and your temple is our only light. I stand next to it so that I can see. I stand next to it so that I can understand. Darkness yields to the light and when there is light we have clarity. When there is light we have hope. If the darkness did prevail there would only be pain and sorrow but hallelujah your temple has brought us light.
     Your temple Lord is our world's only hope. From your temple there flows wisdom that cannot be ignored. Your temple can save us all. I will always worship you within that temple and say prayers before your throne. You are the light and the life to our world. Your temple will always be my sanctuary and my true home.

Monday, January 3, 2011

What You Should Have Done

     You should of went right instead of left. You should of went up instead of down. You should of ran faster instead of slower. There are many things that you should of done but did not do. Because you did not do what you should of done, trouble keeps coming your way.
     Someone seems to be always there telling you what you should have done. Someone seems to be always there pointing out your faults. You already know what you should of done but they keep on telling you anyway.
     How can one see the future and know which way is right? How can you see what tomorrow will bring? I seem to know what I should have done after I did it and not before. I am lacking some sort of insight that would prevent me from making mistakes. Why do I think this is so because many are telling me what I should of done as if I should have known better. They must possess a foresight that I am lacking and now they are chastising me for my inability.
     I wish I was like them perfect in every way but I am not. I make mistakes and I have my troubles too. Perhaps I am to imperfect for this world. I keep doing wrong things other than what I have should of done. People continue to keep blaming me and pointing them out. I believe they think I am blind as well and cannot see what has happen.
     One step in the wrong direction then you trip and fall. Many will stand over you and laugh but not many will reach out so to help you stand. Has all the world become uncompassionate to a hurting soul? Trap we become by our wrong decisions and we become lost as well. But why is it when we need help the most we get is stones thrown our way? Why is it what we should of done but did not do brings down persecution upon us? It is like every mistake must be punished. There is little help for you if you do not do what you should have done. I have concluded that I am a outcast (made by my wrong decisions) living imperfectly among perfect people in their perfect world.  

The Spirit that is Forever

     I can see now the strength of the spirit and it's everlasting qualities. The spirit is forever and the flesh is only temporary. From the spirit, the flesh was created. The spirit keeps us alive. The spirit connects us to our God. Our God has made us into his image by his spirit. His spirit gave us life. He has place his spirit inside all of us and that spirit shall never die.
     Death has no lasting hold on me because God's spirit is inside me. No weapon made can destroy my spirit. My flesh will die but my spirit will live on. Unconquerable, mighty and strong I am for God's spirit cannot perish.
     I can see through the darkness. I can see through the pain and sorrow. The flesh is dying and the spirit is growing stronger. From the cocoon the spirit pushes out and goes toward God. Whatever pain and suffering has occurred, whoever has felt the pain of death and whatever torment the soul has experienced, through the spirit the hand of God can wipe it all away.
     God's spirit is an ocean to which our spirit pours into. God is like a bulb and we are like the flower in due season we will return to our life source. There in that perfect light of God our spirit shall live forever.