I am Sorry

      Do you feel like some days of just saying I am sorry to no one in particular? It is a sorry that you think that people want to hear because they think you are inadequate. It is a shout to the world. I am so sorry to be so disappointing to you. I am sorry to being not smart enough, not rich enough and not coming up to your expectations of me. Sorry to being not handsome or beautiful but just being average me. Sorry for the mistakes I have made. Sorry for me being imperfect. Sorry for not reaching fame or fortune. Sorry for not doing good enough. I just try to do the best that I can and if that is not good enough than I will just say, "I am sorry."
     What more can I do if I am doing my best? Sorry for not not having a genius brain. Sorry for not being a superhuman. I am just average and looking for a place in this world. Sorry for my failings. Sorry for me, in just being an average human. So many apologies, what can I do? Maybe another sorry? Maybe our society isn't interested in an average human being maybe it wants more and more is not me. Sorry for not being somebody that you want me to be.
     A shout to the world that I am sorry until there is no more sorrys left in me. If there is no more sorrys left then what will I do? Live I guess, the best way I know how. Doing average things and living an average life is not bad at all in my opinion. I have more things in common with being one of the many than being one of the few. I feel more comfortable when there are not many eyes looking my way. I am not saying being one of the few is bad but for me just being average is fine. However, I do not like being judged that I am not one of the few. The next time someone criticize me for being average, I believe I will just say that I am sorry.

       

Flooded By to Much Information

     In his book: Every Moment Holy, Douglas Kaine McKelvey offers "A Liturgy For Those Flooded by too Much Information". Here is only what some of his liturgical prayer says.

In a world so wired and interconnected,
our anxious hearts are pummeled by
an endless barrage of troubling news.
We are daily aware of more grief, O Lord,
than we can rightly consider,
of more suffering and scandal
than we can respond to, of more
hostility, hatred, horror, and injustice
than we can engage with compassion.

But you, O Jesus, are not disquieted
by such news of cruelty and terror and war.
You are neither anxious nor overwhelmed.
You carried the full weight of the suffering
of a broken world when you hung upon
the cross, and you carry it still.

And yes, it is your good pleasure to accomplish
such works through your people,
but you have never asked any one of us
to undertake more than your grace
will enable us to fulfill.

Give us discernment
in the face of troubling news reports.
Give us discernment
to know when to pray,
when to speak out,
when to act,
and when to simply
shut off our screens
and our devices,
and to sit quietly
in your presence,

casting the burdens of this world
upon the strong shoulders
of the one who
alone
is able to bear them up.

Amen

What Matters?

      I do not like to repeat a post, however this particular post was only new for a short time. I wanted to give it more time to be read because it has a very important message for us. We do matter.

     What matters? You do and your every thought, your every word, your dreams and your hopes. Your laughter matters, your tears, your joy and your love. All that you are, matters. 
     Are you happy? Is your heart free? These things are importat and they do matter. Oh! How we suffer because we are not valued by our world. Our life maybe nothing to them but to me our life is a precious gift from God. Our life does matter even if no one else thinks so. The Lord die for me and you so he does believe that we do matter.
     Within the hard-hearted ones, there is an absence of love but within the soft-hearted ones, a heart that continues to care. Life does matter to those who can still love. Life is precious in their eyes. They cherish it just as the Lord does. The hate we carry within our heart can destroy our lives but forgiveness and the love of God can save us. What is within your heart does matter.
     We look around us and try to make sense of it. We want to find our place upon this world. I asked this question, "Why do we even exist if it does not really matter?" We exist for a reason and I believe it was not just to die. There is something here to be learned and to be found and I will try my best to learn it and to find it.
     I found these things to be true in my life. The words of God gives me comfort and his promises gives me hope. People who unselfishly reach out and help others raises my spirit. People who believe in and practices the will of God lightens my soul. A man and woman who loves each other and their children makes me happy. A friend who can understand me and still cares, brings me much joy. A good meal, good health, a good summers day, a place to sleep at night, a place to call my home and being around my family and friends are the things that matters to me.
     The things of the heart and the things of the soul really matters to me and I believe it matters to you as well. I am not an island unto myself and separated from the world. I still wish to be apart of it in some positive way. I want to feel that I belong and will be respected by others. Our relationship to each other does matter. How we are treated and how we treat others matters greatly.
     Our life matters and all life around us. All things that we do or do not do effects our life. What really matters is our continuing of our life's journey from the beginning and to the end so to find all the things that truly matters to us.