I Am More

     Sometimes life can seem overwhelming. Our anxiety increases with the added stresses to our life. We can become depressed and even begin to feel a little hopeless in our situation. It can feel like your mind is surrounded in darkness and you cannot find a direction to go in. In this time of my own mental confusion, I realize something about myself I am more than my overwhelming condition. I am more than my weaknesses. My mind may feel that I am drowning in a sea of darkness but I can feel somehow that my spirit is still strong. My spirit is telling me that I am more than what I am feeling. It tells me that I am not defined by the troubles that I am facing. It says I am more greater than the sum of all my problems.
     In my sea of trouble I can see all I have to do is to swim upward toward the light to feel free again. It seems to me that this world has a way of producing a fog of darkness that surrounds the mind making it feel depressed and hopeless. You can become lost in it and it becomes a struggle to just live your life. I know it's a mental condition but sometimes I feel like it is more than just that. It blocks out your happiness and joy it makes you feel that life is not worth living. It feels like it's something evil that is trying to block out all the light of hope from reaching you.
     When my mind is surrounded by a darkness I struggle with it for a time and then some light breaks through. When I am in this depression all my thoughts turn inward on my mental suffering but when I focus upon God my thoughts move outward and God's Holy Spirit have always move the dark clouds away. He had rescued me out of this mental condition so many times I have lost count however I have gathered much insight through my suffering but I rather be well than to suffer.
     It says in 1Corinthians 6:19 that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit whom you have from God. Romans 8:9 "You, however, are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if in fact the Spirit of God dwells in you. Anyone who does not have the Spirit of Christ does not belong to him." I feel because I have the indwelling Spirit of God within me the dark clouds that sometimes surround my mind can never totally take control. I can always break free with God's help. 
     I am more than my problems for the Holy Spirit of God dwells within me and with his help I can manage my problems. They cannot break me for his spirit is there to strengthen me. I do not lean on my own understanding but on the wisdom of God. He has shown me that I am more for I have his spirit to guide my way.