Heal Thyself

      We can be our own worst critic by overly judging ourselves. The endless cycle of criticism and negative thoughts about ourselves can get us down. It can lead us to depression and self isolation. We feel that others are judging us and it makes us not want to be around them. Our negative outlook can make us believe in a false reality that we will never feel good and that people will never like us. This false reality that we create in our mind becomes in a way our prison, a prison that we need to escape from and not continuing to enlarge it. It is why I say to you and to me, heal thyself.
     There is something that is hurting within you. Your inner self is being neglected and you have to nourish it back to health. If you hate yourself where will the healing come from if it isn't coming from you? Our healing must begin with ourselves. We sometimes must force ourselves to move forward.
     We must say to our hurting neglected soul, "Forgive me for not not loving you. Forgive me of not treating you better. Forgive me of believing in the lies that were within my mind telling me that you do not matter. I do feel you hurting and I want to understand why? I will listen and do the right thing to make you feel better. I will try to feel less sorry for myself and give you more of my time. I will love you with all of my heart so that you can feel it inside. We can grow closer together and be that person we want to be."
    Heal thyself, love thyself and be happy with yourself. Yourself needs your help and your love. 

Proverbs 10:12 "Hatred stirs up conflict, but love covers over all wrongs."

Follow The Leader

      This is one of my earliest post. I written it because sometimes we follow and believe what we are told from a young age without question. Almost out of faith we believe what are mother and father is telling us is to be true because it was taught to them by their mother and father. Traditions are followed because they are handed down from one generation to the next and if you asked, "Why?" You will get the answer, "It is the way it has always been." Right or wrong we follow.

Follow The Leader

     Follow the leader many are doing. Someone takes the lead then others follow. A game that is played throughout the centuries. A game that is sustained and played even today.
     By following the leader a wall is built throughout time. A large wall built by many generations. Each adding to the structure. Each carrying it on, to the next.
     I look at the pages of history that are being written and each is the same as the other. The pages are handed down from father to son, from mother to daughter. The pages are instructing us on how to follow.
     Who is in error? That is a hard question to answer, when all of our hands are holding a brick to add upon a wall. A wall that most of us do not even question. We just do as we are told. It is follow the leader a game we play from birth.
     Am I wrong? I asked myself as I look at the brick that is in my hand. Do I want to add to this wall? A wall that I have no control over it's direction. Where is it going and when did it begun? Questions I have never really asked myself before. I just went along following after others building up a wall just because it was there.
     No more, No more following the leader without understanding. No more working upon a structure without a reason, why?
     It is strange to stop while others keep on working. I am no longer a part of the game. I have become a spectator, an outsider to that large group that is still playing. It is strange to be awake while others are still walking around in their sleep. I can feel the loneliness of being separated but I cannot return to my slumber. What now, I do not really know but no more of just following the leader.

Our Enjoyment

     Have we forgotten that our enjoyment is a vital part to our happiness? We may have if our responsibilities have taken over our lives and we have made great sacrifices in order to just survive in life. We put on hold what we really want to do in order to do what we believe is necessary. If we do this long enough and not balance it out with some sort of enjoyment a bitterness will take hold on our lives. You will look at others having fun and feel left out. You will see others smiling and laughing and feel betrayed because they are not feeling sad like you do. They are not doing anything wrong it is you who have ignored your own enjoyment and did not make any time for your own happiness.
     If we have any mental illness it to can blind us from our enjoyment by enslaving our mind to it's will. It will turn our thoughts inward towards fulfilling our obsession. The obsession becomes time consuming and never satisfying. We do what it wants us to do and not what makes us happy. Doing things that makes us happy is a way to our well being. Our sadness can be brought on by not doing anything that we enjoy.
     We do have responsibilities in our life but we need to make a little time for what we enjoy doing. Whether or not it is a hobby, outside activity, singing or dancing or something else if you like doing it, it is important to you and to your happiness. We should not over look the simple things in life that can make a difference in how we feel. Our worries, our anxieties and our many stresses in life can overwhelm us and make us to forget to just relax and enjoy our life. Sometimes we need to just slow down and find the things that makes us happy and then do them.

Proverbs 17:22 "A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones."