What is Evil?

     Evil humiliates us and degrades us. Evil is a stepping down from our humanity. The actions of evil pours out of our weaknesses. It lessen our power and lessen our hope. Evil destroys our world and our very selfs. It brings us back down into the dust.
     Evil slithers around in the dark sneaking up and taking hold. It devours it, it consumes our goodness. It teaches us that we are bad. Evil lies to us and cheat us out of our happiness. It befriends no one but controls many. It does as it pleases and has no regrets.
     Evil darkens our world and blackens our hearts. It pushes out the light from our souls. It tempts us and talks us into badness. It walks into hell and it brings many of us with it. Evil does not die but lives to kill. Evil sends many to the grave without any hope.
     From one end of the Earth to the other it has made itself known. Like a consuming fire it has spread all over our world. Mothers, fathers and their children live in fear when evil comes to their town. It knocks on everyones door in hope that someone will answer. Answer someone will and become consumed by it.
     Twisted minds and twisted souls it leaves behind looking for others to do it's will. Like burnt out logs in a forest fire, peoples souls become. It cares not for anyone for it has no heart and it has no soul. It is an open door to darkness and to sorrow.
     The sun blackens and even the moon gives out no light, when evil comes to visit. The hearts and minds of those who it touches turns cold as death. The warmth of the day and the peace of the night is not within their grasp. Cold days and tormented nights is what they know. Evil grows the hunger and increases the pain until it is unbearable. Hopelessness and despair becomes a well traveled road. Each day becomes the same as the last.
     Evil blinds us and makes us it's slave. Chains of sin it puts upon us and with guilt it weighs us down. Evil tortures our minds and ties up our hearts. It suffocates our soul until we are almost dead. It puts us in a dark room without doors or windows. It tells us there is no way out. It feeds upon us night and day until we no longer exist.
     Unrelenting it is in what it wants, more souls to the fire. No man or woman is immune from its touch. Everyone must fight to keep it at bay. The weak in spirit will surrender and the strong will fight to push it away. Once defeated it will return to fight another day. It is a struggle for our life and for our love.
     Evil wins and it loses but it does not matter. It exist so to hunt it's prey. Like a wolf upon the sheep it preys upon us. It feeds upon our fears. Parasitic in nature it destroys the host. Run and hide we can do but it will find us. Face it and fight it we must do to keep it away.
     God help us and protect us from evil. Cleanse our bodies and our souls. Deliver us from temptation and deliver us from evil. Holy spirit come into our mind and soul. Strengthen our spirit so that we can fight evil and push it away. God come into our lives and guide us into the light. Open our eyes so that we can see and open our hearts so that we can love. Forgive us of our sins and continue to show us your love. In Jesus Christ name
I pray. Amen.    
      

Want

     There is a force that demands without end. It drives many one way then another. It is a force behind craving and addiction. It is faceless and it is filled with emotion. If we do not have control over it then it becomes our master. Many have relinquished their power to it and have become helpless against it. It feels like a strong need but it is only want.
     Want is a unrelenting soulless master hiding in the shadows of our mind. It craves and it desires us to fill it's needs. Want is never satisfied and it keeps on knocking at our door. How many times have you answered it and how many times were you left disappointed and left wanting something more?
     Caught between night and day our soul is pulled in both directions by the need of completion and the want of desire. There is a part of us that needs to be healed and that needs to be whole but our mind lies in a kind of darkness. We do wrong things in order to satisfy our needs. We make our wants our needs. We need our day of completion but our want of things gets in our way.
     Like mindless cattle in the field we keep trying to satisfy our wants. Playing into it's hands every time. Want is leading us down a never ending road. It is breaking our hearts and clouding our mind. The more it demands and the more you give in to it's desire. Want will take it's toll and leave behind our broken souls. Souls that continue to want until the end.
     Is the answer to my want here or there? Should I do this or that to satisfy my desires? You have many questions but want has no answers. Want stays concealed in the shadows and whispers to you the answer is over here. It leads you away from finding the truth in order to keep satisfying it's needs. A sweet dish you are to want, it wants you to keep wanting.
     No way out, No way out, you may say until a day of completion, a day of will, a day of strength, a day when we say no more to want. A day when the sun rises and sets no more. It will be a time of happiness and freedom for our soul. No more being lost and grasping for things that we do not really want. We will know exactly what we want and need. On that day of light, we will be the master over our want and no longer it's slave. We will look past our want and find our need rendering our want powerless against us.
     In the meantime, we must carry on and not give up. There is an answer hidden within our heart and mind. By looking deeply within we can bring our want under control, freeing our mind and soul.

Our Common Needs

     What is that connects me to those in the past, now and in the future? What is that I see in them that are the mirror image of me? What is it that makes me feel for them as they would feel for me? The answer our common needs.
     How hurtful it is for someone to be without their needs. I can feel for those who are without their needs. I can feel for those who are starving because they are lacking in their need for food. I hurt for the ones who are sad because they are lacking their need for happiness. I know their emptiness in the ones who are lacking in their need for love.
     There are those who are violent because they cannot find their need of peace. There are those people who are thirsting because lacking their need of water. I can understand peoples loneliness when they are lacking in their need for friends. It does not matter who or where you are we all have common needs.
     We all have a need for shelter, a need for warmth, a need for health, a need of purpose and a need for love. We have a need for kindness and for forgiveness. We need respect. We need to belong. We need the understanding of others and the need for worship and prayer. These needs of ours are inside everyone of us without them we hurt with them we are made satisfied. Our common needs ties us together as one.
     It does not matter what race or nationality or whether or not we are now or a thousand years ago our common needs are always there. If we are lacking our needs, we will look for them and some will even fight for them. Some of our needs we would die if we do not have them. Our needs are important to everyone one of us. War is started because some have and some do not. Our needs are essential to our survival and to have a happy life.
     I look at not the color, nation or race. I look at the people and their needs. Their needs are the same as mine. Their lives are just as important and their needs are just as important as mine. We are one family under God with common needs.
     Why does one have comfort and the other does not? Why are the needs of one met and the other goes lacking? Sometimes I have and sometimes not my needs. I know what it is to have and know what it is to not have. My life is like other people. When they are lacking I know their pain. I am link as they are to our common needs.
     Today I do have but tomorrow I might be without my needs. I cannot turn my back on those without for tomorrow I could be just the same. One human being is the same as the other when it comes to our common needs.
     Compassion I give because compassion I need, forgiveness I give for forgiveness I need and love I give because love is what I need. These are some of our common needs. Some maybe less and some maybe more but still these are our needs.
     Our common needs maybe a test for our human race. A lesson for one equals the other; an equation needed to be learned by all. If I can be hurt by my lack of my needs another can be hurt as well. I am unique and independent however my needs are just the same. My flesh the same as yours and so are my needs. I equal you and you equal me in just one image the mirror reflects all of us and all of our common needs.
      

Decisions

     Time is slowly ticking away. Each moment a choice, a decision has to be made. Right or left, up or down, stay awake or sleep, decisions upon decisions I make. Is my decision the right one, sometimes I am sure and sometimes I am not. I will continue on in life asking God to help me along the way.
     What of tomorrow and what of today, did I do good or did I do bad in making my decisions? Did my opportunities past by me or did I see them in time? Is my life the way it should be or should it be better? What should I do and in what direction should I go? I have more days to live and more decisions to make.
     On and on through life I have to make decisions. If only I could make a choice and have the option of changing it later, somethings you can and somethings you cannot. Some choices are important and others are not, either way our life is made by them. May God grant us the wisdom in making our decisions.
     I have lived through many seasons. I lived through the rains and the storms, thorough the heat of the summer and the cold of the winter and yet I still have not figured it all out. When will I have clarity? When will I be able to totally see? I hate not knowing. One step into the darkness is one step leading me into the wrong direction. It is a long road leading to a dead end. It is a waste of my precious time. I walk around in life as a man who is in need of much help. Lord help me to find the right way.
     It is one more day to do things eat, sleep, drink and work a continuous pattern until my life ends. Doing the same thing over and over again, I want to say stop to everything so to have time to figure things out. The sun, the moon, the stars of heaven and the earth itself, there is so much to think about and only a little time to do it in. Again choices to make, decisions to be made with only the little information that I have. Woe is me for not being smart enough to do the right thing. One wrong step could bring me calamity.
     Mistakes be gone! Error upon error they weigh me down until I can barely walk. Lord have mercy upon this sorrowful soul. The past is gone and cannot be changed, what will I do? I must try to correct my mistakes in the present and hopefully learn from them. Somethings said and done cannot be taken back, smooth over and forgiven yes but not forgotten. Carefully I must watch what I say and do so that my future will be made better. Forgive me Lord for my nearsightedness and my mistakes.
     The road in living is a long road for some, filled with many twist and turns. What is ahead of us we do not know. Hoping for the best and doing the best we can to get through it. May God help us with our lives for definitely we will need his help. The past is gone, the present is here and the future is ahead of us. Time waits for no one. One day we are young and the next we are old. It is the way of our lives. Walking through life making our decisions, wrong or right is something we will have to live with and do.

A Secret to a Happier Life

Keep on loving when all things are down.
Keep on loving even if there is no one around.

Keep on loving in your darkest hour.
Keep on loving when your bitter and sour.

Keep on loving if there is hate in your heart.
Keep on loving as you walk through the dark

Keep on loving when you are pounded to the ground.
Keep on loving when you are all the way down.

Keep on loving even if you cannot see the sky because of the clouds.
Keep on loving even if the insults are so mean and so loud.

Keep on loving when there is no hope insight.
Keep on loving when you cannot find any light.

Keep on loving when your nearly dead.
Keep on loving when all the voices tell you not to in your head.

Keep on loving and soon you will see,
A person that you always wanted to be.

Diminishing Myself Before God

     I feel ashamed of myself. I turned away from God. I walked in front of him instead of behind him. I made myself more than I am. In my heart I have secretly whispered listen to me as if I was the messiah.
     Every time I stand in a lofty position I fall. Every time I race ahead I stumble. In a haughty manner I condemn and in the same way I bless. I state my views and opinions as if it were God's command. God help me, I have lost my way. I am just a small man upon this Earth. What I think, say or do is very small compared to God.
     My heart is not as big as God's heart. What I cannot forgive he can. Where I lack in love he has abundance. Even if my love has limits he is beyond those limits. He can reach his hand into the deepest darkest pit in hell and rescue a lost soul. God knows our hearts, soul and spirit. When we are ready to come to him he will be there waiting.
    God understands the universe and I understand very little. Where I can see chaos, he can see order. Where I see disaster, he may see renewal. What God can see and understand is beyond my comprehension. If I am to stand before him, I must learn how to bow before him. I must always be humble before my God.
     I do not want to hurt or demean anyone, by my words or deeds. I wish to only reflect God's spirit and to do his will. It is so easy to hurt and not so easy to show love. That is why I must carefully examine my heart and intentions. I want to be a good christian and not an injurious man. I want my eyes always to be focus upon God's kingdom and my heart close to God. I do not wish to stray but to stand firm in his favor. My God has done much for me and I want to return that love.
     I want to tell everyone to be peaceable because peace seems to leave our hearts and minds so easily. Have faith in God for he is working so hard in our behalf. He is moving mountains so that we can have a new world and a new place to live. He is telling the army of heaven to stand ready. He is crowning his son with power and glory. He is making all things new again. There is so much going on that we do not see or understand.
    I have got so caught up in my own little world that my sight has become so narrow. All of heaven and Earth lies before me and I can barely see. How can I stand or speak before anyone if I am stumbling over my own two feet. I must learn to walk again and to see again and to speak again. I will always stand before God as his student and his child to do otherwise would bring dishonor to myself and to God. He is my master not I. I will keep on praying to God to give me enough humility to understand and to learn.

A Change of Heart

     I will not serve up something rotten within me and present it to the world. Why give something that is sickening to your own self and give it to another? No I will not imitate others and follow in there sinful nature. I want to add to our world something that I am proud of rather something I am shame of. I want to be remembered as someone who contributed something beautiful rather than something ugly. I say lets make our world beautiful by letting out the goodness inside.
     Why do something that you will have to lie about rather than something you could be proud of? I want to get up in the morning and look at myself in the mirror and be happy at what I see. I want to have around me things that I can openly show. Inside I feel so free when I have nothing to hide. When you have things to hide you always feel fearful of exposer. I want to feel good about myself and of the things I have done.
     I want to walk through the gates of heaven with my head held high rather than with my head facing down. I want to approach Jesus Christ with a smile rather than a plead of mercy. I want my heart to be open rather than filled with regret. The time is now to do so what I must do in order to have that happiness.
     The change I am talking about and the change that I must have is following the spirit of God within my own heart. It is looking at the children and all the people around me and reaching out my hand to help. There is so much hurt that has been given out now is a time for healing. I want to heal our world with the God given goodness within my own heart.
     I believe it is not an impossible task. Jesus Christ has already shown us that change is not impossible. He has change so many of us and we will never be the same again. We were touched by his love and by his words about God's grace. It is not impossible to change your heart if you really want to. God's spirit is there waiting at the entrance of your heart. All we have to do is just open up our hearts and let it come on in. Through his spirit God will guide our way.

What, are we Fed?

     From a young age I was fed certain things and I accepted them. I did not know from what origin they came. I just accepted them without question. I lived my life according to what I was told. If a man was born and raised in darkness would he know he was living in darkness? What we are fed at birth we become accustom to whether are not it is right or wrong.
     I wonder to myself if I am living my life by the illusions of darkness rather than the truth of the light. How can one completely rid himself from a lifetime of lies and deceptions? Can I truly say to myself I can see? I believe I am not seeing the complete truth.
     I am not infallible. I can make mistakes and misunderstand situations. I can only see things through my own eyes. If there are clouds blocking my vision, my vision becomes unclear. I see one way while others may see another. Who is right and who is wrong if our eyes are not totally open?
     I will try to watch what is being place on my plate for me to eat. However I know a few wrong things will slip by me. They will cloud my vision and become apart of my speech, forgive me if you possibly can. I am imperfect and trying my best to have clarity. I know I must rely heavily on God for the understanding that I need. My eyes will be looking to his word and my heart will be saying a prayer. In time I know with the Lord's help I will be able to see and to understand a little more of the truth.